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Spirit Whispers: Handing back the Ancestral Burdens

Hope you are all surviving the energy as much as possible.   We are massively on declutter mode at the moment and I asked Spirit to give me a technique that would help people to remove the Ancestral burdens that have been handed down through generations into our current personal stories.

So they came up with this technique which is both easy to envisage and a great place to start with the shifting of the old beliefs, energy, frustration and responsibility burdens that have been shifting through the generations and are now completely over due to be released.

So for you, Gorgeous Lights, give this technique a whirl.

Ancestral Burden Release:

Find a comfortable spot and take three breaths in and out, blowing out the energy of the day and releasing pent-up emotions.     Close your eyes and relax.   In your mind’s eye, I would like you to look down and see that your solar plexus is glowing like a small ember.  I would like you to empower that ember by asking that all of the burdens, ancestral and from past lives feed that ember, coming from the depths of your being and adding to the ember until it is a burning bright flame.   Add to the flame all of the feelings of duty, responsibility and wounded hurts of the past.    As it becomes brilliant and the size of a small orange.  I would like you to loving collect that flame from your solar plexus and place it into an old-fashioned black or iron lantern from yesteryear.

Notice how the flame easily came away from your solar plexus and completely fills the lantern brightly.   I would like you to ask for all the women on your Mum’s side of the family to help you through ancestral links to pass this light “wound” back through time to the space of its origin.   You will feel the movement as Spirit comes in to line up to collect what is no longer yours to carry for Spirit is aware as well, it is well overdue to let go of these carried burdens from the past.   You do not need to see the women, just look for the reaching pair of hands to take the lantern from you with love.

Handing the lantern with love to the first pair of hands that reach, please say the following.

“I take this light wound, this ancestral feminine burden that I have been carrying and I hand it to you, so you in turn can pass this back in time to the point of origin.  I give this light wound back with love, the burden no longer needing to be carrying but needing to be acknowledged through space and time, to return to the place of its conception.”

For each set of hands that reach out and take the lantern, please repeat the above.   You are for each wounded woman, acknowledging their role, their hurts and the burden that they too have carried and wish to give back.  You may find that it goes back more than four generations, keep repeating until the light goes to a pair of hands that will either extinguish the light, or it will snuff out.  In some people I have seen the lantern be thrown, smothered or even stamped out.   The point is it needs to go back to where it came from as it is no longer yours to carry.   It is their decision how they choose to extinguish the light wound not yours.

Now that the “light wound” has been extinguished I want you to ask for the help of the Angelics to fill the “hole” that has been left by the wound and you can simply do this by asking them the following.

“Divine Beings, Messengers of Divine light, I ask for you to help me, to fill my being with my divine purpose, light of love to replace the burdens that I have carried for so long.  I ask that I am filled with the light of the highest of love, filling my centre, healing my ancestral wound. So be it”

Envisage yourself being filled with light to the centre of your solar plexus and flowing throughout your whole being.   Thank the Angelics for their blessed role and allow yourself a couple of days for your energy to settle again.  You have been carrying this for a very long time and it may take a couple of days for you to resettle in yourself.

If you feel also you have carried burdens from both sides, male and female.  Please feel free to hand these burdens back all around.   I would not suggest doing everyone at once for your own energetic sake, but just who you are drawn to at the time.  Allowing time for your energy to settle is crucial but also as crucial is the recognition in self, and let yourself be led by this as to whether it is the masculine, or feminine energies of family connections that carry the most burdens.

If you choose to do the masculine sides of your family tree, by all means change the wording to the following and then repeat with the Angelic blessing for wholeness.

“I take this light wound, this ancestral masculine burden that I have been carrying and I hand it to you, so you in turn can pass this back in time to the point of origin.  I give this light wound back with love, the burden no longer needing to be carrying but needing to be acknowledged through space and time, to return to the place of its conception.”

I have hesitated a bit in putting up this technique as I totally believe that it is free choice to remove burdens that you may or may not be aware of.  However, remember this in this de-cluttering energy, that it truthfully may be time to acknowledge so much of what you carry in your belief structures, programmed experiences, understanding and even lives you have had before, can at times hold us back from giving ourselves the freedom to be ourselves.   We are like onions, we have so many layers and permission of self to free self is so very crucial and important.   I leave therefore, your choice around this technique to your own soul wisdom to choose as you see fit.

One of the benefits I have seen from this technique is that it works through space and time forwards as well as backwards, and it takes the burden inadvertently passed from children as well.   Not their life choices, nor their own learning, but any ancestral linkage that may no longer be required.

Please as ever look after yourselves as lovingly as possible in this shifting energy and let me know how you get on.






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Spirit Whispers: What’s in a Journey, a Parable

Goodness I actually realise that while I spent a huge amount of time with my Guides listening to their wisdom and the learning that comes in between, I usually don’t stop long enough to share it with others.  If you thought they stopped telling me Parables, then you would be wrong.  I love stories, have since I was little and Aho, my current Guide who is teaching me of “Compassion of Self” is very good with stories.   Also his name is Japanese and means “idiot”, another story completely as Aho and I had a life together where he was born sickly, and blind due to a mother addicted to Opium and a Grandmother who refused to give up on him, teaching him wisdom and unconditional love.   It amazes me the depths of love we have for each other if we can just get out of our own way.  That story belongs to another day, but I am so grateful for all his wisdom and the Parables that make you think.  Aho, I am blessed, grateful and delighted to share.

The Journey:

A long time ago into the depths of the mountains in China, a young man dreamed of the sea.  He did not really know what the sea was, but in his dream it felt like it was a wondrous thing, rhythmic and vast, bigger than any lake or stream that he had seen in his small village life and he longed with a deep abiding drive that he simply did not understand to see something that consumed his dreams.

When he was 17 he told his father, he would not tend the small plot in the village, that a wanderlust deep in his soul was pushing him and he needed to go and see if what he dreamed was real and as wonderful as what he thought.  The father was saddened but having spent years listening to his son talk of nothing else, of something so vast yet unseen.  He knew that to regain his son he would have to let him go.   With a heavy heart he helped the young man pack a cloth knapsack of dried foods, rices and walked him to the edge of the small mountain village.    “Go well, my son” he said as he hugged him tight to his chest for a moment.  “I truly hope you return to tell me you have found what you sought.”   The young man looked at his bare feet for a moment and then said to his father.  “Thank you, for understanding my need.”

He set out of the village and headed down through the valley, learning as he went and weathering the pathways carved by many travelers before.    He had been travelling through villages for many months when he came to a busy village and he stopped with weary feet and approached a man for work.  “May I help in your shop for a meal and some time to spend, as I am on a journey to find the sea.”  The man surveyed the young man, liking his stance and his honesty and he agreed.   The young man worked very hard through the day and impressed the older man took him home to meet his family.  Upon introducing his daughter to the young man, he was immediately aware of the spark between the two and he smiled.  He thought this traveler may be very good for his stubborn, choosy daughter.   He left them talking and went to bed.  The young man remained with the family for four weeks, enough to fall in love with the young woman but the dreams continued and he regretfully declined the offer from her father for her hand and leaving a tearful young woman, who he vowed he would return to.  He continued on his journey across the lands in search of his dream.

The months passed again and he came across a farmer planting in the early spring and offered again his services in payment for food and lodging.  The farmer initially distrustful, agreed if the young man helped him plant the field, he would indeed feed and shelter him.  They worked solidly and soon they had finished.  The farmer delighted with the days work and the diligent speed of the young man, took him to the house and fed him well.   That night he asked the young man to stay and work for him until the harvest of the field and he would pay him with half of the reward of the crop.   The young man shook his head and explained he had been on the road for months and months in his quest.  No offer from the kindly farmer could sway him for long and a week later he was on the road again.

Many times the young man through his diligence, honesty was offered food, reward and even presented with an interesting offer in one village of going on a quest with another man to seek a cave of riches of which the man offered to share with him.  He turned all of them down and continued on his quest for the sea.

He finally after a year of travelling arrived at a seaside village.  The smell of the sea was in the air and it was everything that he had dreamed of.  He sat for hours just taking in the sights and the sounds, in awe of the reality of what he had dreamed of for so very long.  The sea crashes gently on the shore, rhythmic and vast, relentless in its caressing of the land.  The young man stayed for many months by the sea, watching her every day, the changes but also the relentless persistence of her and he came to an understanding within himself.   Finally he said to the fishermen that he had been working with.  “It is time I went home.”   They were saddened to see him leave but Fishermen understand that restlessness is often a trait of those who are drawn to the sea and they simply nodded.

They helped him pack, older and wiser, for two years had passed since he had left his home village.    He turned and headed back the way he had come.  There was now a spring in his step as he retraced his tracks and headed back.  He had accomplished what he needed to do and he was content to continue back to a settled life.  Thoughts of the young woman came to his mind constantly and pushed him further away from the sea shores.

The first village he came across he was welcomed back with open arms, they recognised him even though such time had passed.  It was the village of the man of the quest for the cave of riches and he found the man in a tavern, dressed immaculately and dining on the best food.  The young man approached him.  “I have completed my quest, if you wish I have time now to help you on your quest”.  The older man looked at him slightly confused.  “But I needed you to help me on the quest months and months ago.  I have already been and found the cave and the treasures were there.  I am sorry, my friend, I have no need of your help.”  He clapped the young man on the back and brought him an opulent meal and wished him well on the way.   The young man was slightly disappointed because he would have liked to take the wealth to the young woman.   He rested for the night in the village and headed out early the next day.

He traveled, and traveled, walking days and nights and came to the village where the farmer was.  He knocked on the farmers door and it was pulled open.  The farmer delighted pulled the young man in, questioning of his travels and did he get what he needed from the quest.  The young man smiled.  “I did but I wondered if you needed me to help with the crops for a time, and if the offer still remained for a share of the tended yield?”    The farmer shook his head sadly.  “I am sorry, that crop was amazing that year, I am very set up, I have no need to work as hard as I did.  I thank you for your offer and 12 months ago I would have taken you in.  However, it is different now and soon I shall be retiring in the village for a peaceful life.   Go well in your life, I am sure you will do well.”  Again the young man was a little disappointed to not be able to take the young woman any finances or reward, stayed with his farmer friend for a couple of days and then traveled again for months on his way back home.

He reached the village of the young woman and his heart was bursting with delight.  He brought some simple flowers and knocked on the shop keepers door.   The young woman with her hair up in a bun, opened the door and gasped in shock.  The young man sank to his knees and held up the flowers.  “I am back, beautiful girl, will you marry me and return with me to my village in the mountains?”   The young woman burst into tears, holding on to the bump on the front of her.   “I am so sorry” she sobbed “I did not believe after a year that you would return with no word, no message, it gave me no hope.  I have married another and carry his child.”  She fled from the door into the depths of the shop and the father came forward and placed a hand on the young man’s arm.   “She mourned you terribly” he said, “then the arms of another gave her solace and hope.  Safe travels’   He shut the door gently in front of the young man.

The young man was devastated with the loss and determinedly traveled, hardly sleeping or eating in his grief and finally made it up the mountain pass to his village.  He was thin, weak and drained in his grief.   His family delighted with him being back could not believe the changes in him.    The father said to him once he had recovered for a couple of days.  “My son, was the journey so bad that you return as you are.  Half the man, disillusioned, passion gone and grief stricken?”   The young man  replied.  “Father, in my quest, my determination to get to what I thought was my destination, I missed opportunity after opportunity.  I came to realise that life is like the ocean.  Comes in ebbs and waves.  If the opportunity is not taken, it is like it is written in sad, disappearing in the next wave, never to appear again.    My mistake was not realising that what I sought was not a physical thing, but the ebbs and tides of the waves of my life and the joy that it would bring.”

The father clapped the son wisely on the shoulder.  “Your wisdom is great my son, vast as an ocean.  What will you do now?”   The son looked deeply into his fathers eyes.  “I will be like the tide, persistent, caressing, seeking grains of truth in all I do.  I will BE the journey not just take the journey this time.”


Aho, thank you, it is indeed a truth, we think we are on a journey, but we are the journey and the opportunity always is within us to be all we can be.

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Spirit Whispers: Self-ISH

Seriously when Upstairs handed me a machete and a piece of cheese AGAIN in October I was gobsmacked.   This had happened before I left NZ to live in Canada when I was 18 years old.   I was immediately suspicious.   “What’s this for?  I am done carving new pathways!”  I hesitate looking at the items “Aren’t I?”

Reynard, ever patient, ever kind looks at me with such wisdom.  “You know that on the earth plane, there is always change, always evolution and most of it, is how you learn about you.”    I mumble, “Yes but it’s never in a format that doesn’t challenge me is it?”

His eyebrows soar to the roof just about, like eloquent wings of white.  “Why on earth would it not be about you?”      I refrain from my eye roll.   Mehhhhhhhh!!  I don’t want these things!   I tuck them politely away behind me, a move that Reynard smothers a grin at.  Seriously I can tuck them away all I want in denial but things are about to change.

Most of what I have learned about being on the earth plane, is that at a soul level we are pushed by our own soul level evolution.  We either do it ourselves after becoming so restless in ourselves that we finally shift ourselves into change, or we are (lovingly?) positioned by other souls (family and friends) into making massive changes on the back of “I’m DONE being taken advantage of!”  Doesn’t really matter what way it happens, lose someone, get fired, someone has an affair.  Change is there at a base level of your learning because it simply evolves YOU.

I suppose I should in a way be grateful for the heads up that they always give me that something is about to change or give.   So me being me, I “Ostriched” it…  Buried the machete, tucked the cheese in my pocket and filed the good luck note.   (I’m so amusing in my naivety).

All through October and November illuminations came thick and fast I could not be there ENOUGH for people.   That my own needs would be continually put on the back burner, or others needs would take precedence over mine.  I bent and I bent, hobbling along to my lovely healing man to get my painful back sorted and then carrying people some more as it moaned and complained with the weight of my “distorted” responsibility.    As the saying goes “Something’s gotta give”.

Upstairs, when I moaned, pointed simply at the machete, the mouldy cheese and mumbled about filed notes.    Funny what becomes a tipping point really, it always in my book is a straw, yellowed and dried in the hot summer sun, that breaks the camels back.  Relentlessly the energy pressured me to look at what I was doing to myself and more and more people joined beautiful forces to illuminate what I was doing to myself.  Judgement, criticism, rudeness and expectation crashed down on me from an inventive variety of sources until that back broke.

After a night of struggling to breathe as yet again my diaphragm locked its muscles into agonising constriction, I went mental at Elom (my lovely helpful Angel).  He let me vent, lovely golden features and peaceful calm and said “Self-ISH”.   I immediately did my normal trick of trying to blame myself and said “OMG am I being selfish???”

He laughed, bless him.  “You have forgotten in your distraction of needing approval from others, that you have your own needs.  You look at them for a moment and then continue to accommodate others because you have told yourself you are of lesser importance.  You have distorted your reality so much, that you cannot breathe under the pressure to please you have created on yourself.”

Stubbornly stunned pause on my behalf as I consider this and then answer with the one word that Carer Souls use so frequently to justify bending over backwards to please others.  “BUT…”   He frowns those golden features at me not with displeasure but at the speed I am about to justify my behaviour that sacrifices me.   After a pause from me, and an eloquently raised brow from him, I just look at him in silence.  Carer Souls justify to themselves that they are the ONLY ones who can fix things, do things, be there.  Usually totally missing the point they are creating continually Universal Illumination that others will take advantage to try and show them to stop it.

“Self-ISH” he pronounces AGAIN.   “You need to unlearn your habit and relearn a new way of being for yourself.  Without justification, guilt and blame directed at yourself.  You must gently give yourself permission to say “No” without that chorus of voices in your head screeching you are lessor, you should sacrifice you, that you are the only one seeing what needs to be done and doing it.  You need to be SELF-ISH, not PEOPLE-ISH.

You need to approve you as an important person and relearn lovingly to allow yourself room to be yourself first.  You cannot help people with a distorted view of where you fit in your own world.  It is time for you to carve a new way of life for YOU.”

During this advice, it is feeling like an elephant is slowly deciding to get off my diaphragm.  Amazing what the body has been trying to show me all the way along.  Sod it!

Elom showers me in golden petals and they kiss my face like raindrops.  “Time to love you first and then you will have more love for others.”    I have thought about this a lot and I do not believe that he is wrong.  Instead of sitting in resentment that others never think of you.  Think of you first and start the long process of re-educating others that you are not there at the drop of a hat when it suits them.  Personally I think it does require a machete and a piece of cheese and a good luck note as a LOT of people will not be happy with this change in you.   After all have a think about HOW long you have been educating those around you that you will be there for them first and you second?   I bet its been quite some time.

And those screeching voices in your head,  that make you feel guilty for speaking your mind? Saying what you need to?  Finally claiming some space for you?  Tell them to SOD OFF, its time to be SELF-ISH.   We are heading into the most creative energy I have ever seen and its about creating your beautiful life not rescuing the world single-handed even if you are cradling a machete.   Nope, this is about a NEW pathway for YOU, one you carve just for you and if its carved well, then NATURALLY others will want to follow!   Go you, you Pioneer!!!

Personally, I’m back breathing, moving and really well!  Machete in hand, I may not be here to answer every question, I do the best I can and some things OF COURSE, you get to sort yourselves.  Doesn’t mean I love you less, but I’m learning to love me and that too is MY worthwhile investment into me.   So help me through the changes and in turn help yourself!   After all we are in this together!   SELF-ISH here we come!


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Spirit Whispers: Princess/Prince VS Queen/King… Emotionless Warrior VS Emotional Warrior

I have been thinking a long time about this blog and discussing it majorly with “Upstairs”.  There are so many changes happening in this “relationship” energy and its amazing to watch how people handle things and the reasons why they handle things the way they do.

In some ways, this is a two view points blog but its happening to both genders and the fallout is the massive gap in communication in between.   It is not about being the voice of reason the Guides say but how much acceptance we have in terms of shedding responsibility and how much blame we can give ourselves and another.    When they word it that way I kinda cringe, because there really is only an individual perspective for each person in every situation and if we believe that all is exactly the way it should be, then why am I writing this blog.   Simple… Illumination.

We are at a pivotal shift in how we look at each other in relationships.  I am talking mother/father, mother/child, father/child, partner/partner just about every mix you can think of is being adjusted in this monumental shift.   So to try and make it as simple as possible the Guides use some of the following analogies to help it be more clear BUT firstly…  Holding SPACE is crucial at this time and I fundamentally believe because of my own experiences, this is necessary for all parties (if they are willing to evolve) to do.

So here goes…   My definitions in this energy…

Princess/Prince Stage: When you suddenly realise that you have quite a bit of understanding spiritually and wisdom gained physically on your pathway and suddenly from your point of view everyone else is either behind the eight ball or soooo slow to work out what you already have.   Your tolerances are sharp and thin and you cannot stop mentally rolling your eyes at people’s habits and patterns, behaviour and thinking “For God’s sake WAKE UP”  So you decide in your newfound understanding to “express” to people where they are going wrong and have been going wrong in your life, your entire life.  You don’t realise you have been turning up for them in a certain way for years and now you want to change that?  Instead you snap at them, jump down their throats and burn the bridges of friendship because you are DONE with them taking advantage of you!    Hmmz, when you read it that way it sounds terrible doesn’t it?   Suddenly you are wanting to quit your job because you work with idiots, leave a partner because he doesn’t do anything for you and you have been doing stuff for him for years, get rid of all those needy people sponging off you when you thanklessly did stuff for them for years and years.    They are all wrong and you need to get rid of them!  All of them…  *coughs quietly and mutters (Off with their heads!)  Now I am not picking because that would be judgement and in the Princess Stage there is enough judgement to sink the Titanic.  I am merely pointing out, its a really, really valid STAGE and its everywhere at the moment and I have to say women and men alike are “Princing and Princessing” their way across the Universe right now, completely unaware in their vindication of being right, that everyone else is WRONG.  Seriously this is a STAGE but some can own it for a lifetime..   Sure, you have changed and its great that you have recognition that you have, but in this stage, its blame central and everyone the royal eye casts itself on will probably get a tune up….. 


Queen/King Stage: It takes time and vulnerability of self to become a Queen/King.  It takes long looking into situations with patience and an open mind to see that the Universe is responding all the time to the changes in YOU.  Then understanding, most of what is changing is not because of someone else, but rather pivotal shifts in your own growth that makes you see where you have been turning up for people in a vain attempt to keep them happy, when you are actually making them and yourself miserable at the same time.  Queens/Kings rule their worlds with wisdom gained of experiences and self, are vulnerable enough to know they make mistakes and gain from them.   They look at all their subjects as part of their world, their Kingdom and they love them for being a part of it regardless of what learning and growth they bring.   They patiently wait, gently guiding others to be more thoughtful of themselves and so in turn how they deal with others.   They HOLD SPACE waiting for others to work it out and feel supported in their transition.  They don’t blame or judge.  They use careful, caring strategies to place firm, clear, assertive boundaries with clear, assertive communications.    They can have a tantrum at the Universe but acknowledge to self, that all things in balance are part of being human without blaming themselves for not having it all together.    Queens/Kings have earned their role, weathered through enough hard gained wisdom to truthfully know that communication, compassion and honesty pay off in the long run of life.   They look carefully at their relationships and give room and space for the other to grow with them, not forever, but some time.  They are clear in communication of this and regretfully weed out those who will not look at evolving, with love even in the face of tantrums from the outgoing parties.  Good Queens/Kings and I am using these terms as analogies, remember that, listen to the people, keep an open mind.  Recognise needs and awareness of others and patiently keep calm and assertive in recognition of a wider understanding.  They will hold space, an agreement within themselves for a period of time, to allow others to evolve into a deeper understanding.  Very aware that each has their own growth stage, while never compromising themselves for others.


These are not the only fundamental changes that are shifting, but looking at the societal roles in place in this current energy is also changing as well.   I have talked about moving out of “Suffer to Learn” and into “Create to be”.    These are transitions, and stages, and like putting jigsaw puzzle pieces together, we are slowly evolving into better understanding of each other, genders and equality of emotional levels.

I know that there are elementary differences between how males and females think but if we are changing philosophies then the rules have changed also in how we deal with each other.   Most of us have programming from our parents, society.  Heaven forbid, “Roles and Rules” that we were told we had to fulfill that were gender specific.   This energy is challenging so many areas in relationships, we have to pay attention to where we are personally at so we can stop being at such cross purposes.   We have the worst statistics in terms of how we treat relationships than we have ever had and we are falling down on communication with each other massively.    I have been so quiet blogging because I have spent most of my time actively discussing all the changes with upstairs and wondering how the outcomes will fall into place.   They keep showing me glimpses of understanding and how it is slowly, painfully slowly incorporating into our world.    We need to be the change we need in patience and tolerance.


Emotionless Warriors:

I love men, I love the way they think!  Simplicity and at times compartmentalized brain patterns.  Wanna talk about the car, no problem, but don’t interrupt that talk with another subject, sheesh!  I have the car compartment open.   They are gorgeously direct and amazing.  However, seems that I am seeing a lot who have been programmed with the “man up, suck it up” philosophy handed down from generation to generation.   Also I am meeting quite a few women who fit in this category too.   It’s the game of distraction at its best.   I DON’T LIKE FEELING VULNERABLE.   So I will either, ignore the problem, or you.   Distract myself with a task that makes me feel better rather than sitting in how I feel.   Apply a fact or logic so that silly emotional needs can be dismissed.    They simply detest having to feel because of how vulnerable it makes them feel.   The Guides and I discuss this one a lot.  Mostly it is programming, where they have not ever been taught to self nurture, and have a startling lack of love and nurturing through their childhoods.  They have the ability unfortunately to make those who feel to make them feel isolated, lost, alone and emotionally unstable. They can make you feel like YOU are the one with the problem.     BEFORE you want to force them to feel, be aware of this, these amazing people have been damaged by a lack of love.   They actually feel incredibly deeply but they have never been taught HOW to nurture themselves let alone others.   “Upstairs” has a saying…  “You want them to feel, but in reality, it is like sending them outside blindfolded, without a shovel and saying you want a hole dug.”      They have no tools to evolve with until someone lovingly takes time and energy to help them evolve.   Many people will not have the time, energy, communication and love,  and the Prince and Princesses will definitely not.  It takes patience, wisdom and understanding to work with people who have never been loved well.  They struggle to love themselves deeply and yet most feeling based people “expect” them to be emotionally reciprocal when they cannot.    It takes open communication and nurturing, time, and in this energy many do not have the time for it as they are finding they need to work on themselves first which is perfectly okay, but we are all in this together too.  We need to remember that.  They are just as much work as the Prince and Princesses in their avoidance of themselves and love tactics!


Emotional Warriors:

Again few and far between but energetically we are being pushed towards this.  The people who have looked at themselves and said “I will start with me first.”   I will apply wisdom and understanding that I am really important in my own world and it is not selfish.   They allow themselves to experience without judgement all aspects of the emotional spectrum and they are not afraid to show it.    Tears can spring from eyes at the drop of heart based energy and they are not bothered by it.   I have met only a few men who are able to be vulnerable and in touch with their feelings and honour who they are but they are amazing.   They have not sacrificed one little bit of themselves by being vulnerable.  If anything they are stronger for it.  They recover quicker from life issues and challenges and are more in tune with their own needs and those of others.  Women who have run this gauntlet as well are stronger and more in tune with their own lives and clear boundaries and balances.   All are open communicators with balance and understanding.  Please understand no one is expecting anyone to be perfect within this, Emotional Warriors usually work with people to help them find their way back to themselves as well as they know and have experienced the benefits of being in touch with who they truthfully are, warts and all.  Emotional Warriors have experienced suppressing emotions and know how hard it is emotionally, mentally and physically to do this and they won’t.  They have discovered who they are and how they want to turn up in their own life and they were the change they needed to be.


There is no pointing fingers here, there is just illumination of shifts and changes and the challenges that go with it.   The human experience is an evolutionary one, but sometimes stop and hold space for yourself to work it out and see where you are changing and then while you are changing have a look at it in terms of stages.  If you are in a specific stage, then recognition and acknowledgement are crucial because taking it out on everyone else and expecting them to “understand” when maybe they haven’t got that recognition or are even at that stage is cruel.     We need to hold space for ourselves and others, and give patience and tolerance, compassion and love for the growth of us as a collective.  Now is perfect to look at how you are responding in this “relationship” energy as its going right through to February and how we weather this together for ourselves, each other and the world, is how we get through these stages in the end.    It’s my thoughts in conjunction with discussions for months with “Upstairs” put on paper…

As ever I am interested in your thoughts and how you are doing in this shifting pivotal time.   Look after you, learn to hold space for you and others, we truly are in this together.


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Spirit Whispers: Declutter, Unpack, Clear Out!

Well in the last blog I talked about fragmenting and us cracking, or totally feeling like we are cracking into pieces.  So many people I am seeing are asking me, who am I?   I don’t know who I am?

Coming out of “Suffer to learn” we are reassembling ourselves into a new us.  One where we are a priority in our own lives.  Now always when I say this people go, oh that’s just being selfish.  You want me to be selfish?  I get guilty if I do selfish.   I usually go right and do you get resentful when people are asking you to turn up for them instead of you?

It’s a catch 22.  The more you do not feed your soul, the more put out you will be in this energy when people ask you to do things for them. But also remember this…. YOU in the first place programmed all the people around you HOW you would turn up for them.  If you were over compensation their needs than of course they will keep asking, expecting and venting.   I would too, you were wonderful at looking after their needs not yours.

So before you pull the machete and chop their heads off with judgement.  Think of this.  YOU ALLOWED THEM to expect so much from you by doing.    I am seeing so many people instantly finish friendships because of expectations and yet they are not seeing that the arrangement was incredibly one-sided because they LET it be that way.   This is not a time of judgement and disillusionment but rather recognition, acknowledgement and illumination.

To be perfectly honest, when the Guides said that we would head into four months of truthful clarity I was like ohhh awesome people will be more honest.  Well yes the brutal honesty is there but heck people there AIN’T much love going on.  Loads of pointy fingers and yelling more like it and the most yelled?  “That’s IT! I’m done!”     Stop with the catalyst recognition already!    The illuminations are so you can learn about you, not morph down to a tantrum throwing 3 year old.  (Well okay sometimes I do believe that helps because at least its truthful).  However, truthful clarity is about honesty with love.

Everything that is happening at the moment is about empowering you into a better place.  Being more worthy with yourself about your time, your energy and your love.  Upstairs will always preach about you needing to look after you first so you have the energy to then love others.  When we love ourselves unconditionally, we put no conditions on others, so we can acknowledge where their level of learning is, know it’s about them, and rise over the top of it.  ALL WITH LOVE.  Ahemmmm, that actually is a crucial ingredient seriously.

Personally I’m so tired of hearing people tell me how narcassistic that one is, how dangerous a person they are, how manipulative.  All I see when I look is a damaged person who learned how to damage other people.   We need those people though, because they teach us so much about ourselves in so many ways.  Plus they give you amazing choices to grow you.  Every person that I see that has been with a “narcassistic” person has decided they deserved more, needed more, wanted more, learned to love them more.  Okay, Okay, it can be eventually.  But this is a learning realm, and you aren’t really learning about others, but your patience, tolerance and love of YOU.

I know I’m annoying but hey I’m a big picture person, cause all those pieces together brings more understanding.  Most people need to be fully present in the experience, its how we grow and learn and evolve.   However, as I digress the main thing you can do in this energy is:

  1.  Recognise
  2. Acknowledge your role
  3. Inspire yourself with the knowledge
  4. Forgive YOU
  5. Evolve

First start?  Let go of the baggage, stop carrying that heavy stuff with you.  Apply forgiveness for needing to learn it all in the first place, and allow it to fall away.  You gained what you needed from it at the time but to carry it all is making you soul level weary.  Its baggage not just from this life either, but lifetimes.   We are heading towards upgrades, over hauls and recalibration.   Time to definitely throw out the baggage, old shorts, the don’t hurt me, blame and as someone so eloquently said fill in those cracks with loving light to help reheal you into the new person your soul is longing to be.  The one that you allow just to BE, BE LOVED, BE SEEN, BE HONOURED, BE EVOLVED.

The time is perfect.   Four months, clear out, let go, love you a bit more and forgive you passionately for all the learning.  Step away from judgement, criticism and morphing down to kindergarten levels.   All it does is make you resent who you are.

There will be all sorts of challenging energy within this as you fight with you, with others as ego has a play in saying I need to be right in this, hold onto those old outdated values.  Allow all this, its part of the process but whenever you get the chance…. breathe in, blow it out.  Hug yourself in love, and LET IT GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

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Spirit Whispers: Some Assembly Required

Two weeks ago I stretched to get loo paper for the bathroom and felt my entire diaphragm lock up.  Pain stretched from the middle of my back, around my ribs and down into my intestine and pelvis.   I froze in absolute pain and tried doing the shallowest breathing as possible to minimize how much agony I was in.  I simply couldn’t move so began counting as slowly as possible before I tried to straighten up.    None of the muscles were responding and I felt tears stream down my face as I huffed tiny breaths trying to breathe.

This was not my normal back problem that I have had for years in the lower back, this was something else completely.  I felt broken in pieces and ever so slowly taking tiny huffs managed to shuffle upright and to the door.  I squeaked out a help please as I moved out of the bathroom and my son came from his room.  “Jesus Mum!  What the hell you are white as a sheet!”

“Don’t touch me!  Just move things out my way please.” I hiss at him huffing like a train trying to get air into stuck lungs.  I felt like I was in a vice.  I was still crying as I struggled to get to the bedroom and off my back.   Sometimes stretching out flat on my back would pull things back into order.   I look at the bed and suddenly think, OMG I straightened myself up, how the hell do I bend to lie down again.   Bands of agony tighten again as I move to sit and my son holds out arms in case I pitch forward and pass out which is what he is afraid I will do.

Between the two of us I collapse into bed and try breathing.   Nope still no major luck and I cannot see to take the pressure off my diaphragm.  “Go get me painkillers please Love, I can’t do a thing until the pain settles down.”    He sprints off.

I close my eyes and yell inside my head for Elom.   My beautiful Angel Guide appears with a whoosh of wings.  He looks at me considerately.   “We did warn you to take better care of yourself.”   I refrain from swearing at him, he’s not being patronizing, he’s merely stating a fact.   My son is back with pain killers so I swallow two and thank him, ask him to give me some time and I will call if I need him.   Elom waits patiently as I close my eyes and put all my concentration on him.

I have this habit of rising up and away from the physical body when it’s not doing so well.  It annoys the hell out of my family as I distance myself from it but it sure is a heck of a lot nicer than sitting in the pain.   “Okay, firstly did I break something? or is a disc? because it sure as hell feels like I strained my diaphragm!   I have scanned myself and T9 is illuminated and nerves have shot off, locking up intestine and bladder as well as feeling like my ribs are welded.”

Elom looks at me carefully.   “We asked you take some time off to recalibrate both your aura, chakras and physicality.   You have not.”    I roll my eyes mentally at him.  “I am, in a couple of weeks I am going away for a week to the middle of nowhere, so yes I heard and I am.”

“You know the alignment of the Universe also co-incides with changes of the energy and the physical and you also know that up to Christmas is part of the re-assembly of assignments of soul, soul alignments and chakra integration.”   Again, I try not to roll my eyes, I have been Upstairs most nights working towards this DNA structure and integrated chakra system realignment.    I sigh impatiently and do my normal irritating habit which is “yup, yup, yup, yup.”

Thank God Elom is as patient as he is.   “In order for those alignments to integrate fully with the human body, you must also surrender to allowing the physical to adjust to these changes.   You have not.”

“Oh look this is probably all because of falling through that rotten canvas deck chair last Christmas and hitting my head and tailbone, it’s still bloody numb!”   He sighs and for a little moment he lights up golden like a Christmas tree light.

“It is very irritating when you keep pushing boundaries when we are trying to help integrate the changes.”

Me indignantly “What reaching for loo paper for the bathroom??”

As you can see the conversation was circular and to my end just a distraction from coming back into my extremely pained body.    At the end of the conversation Elom did actually ask me to tell you what to do in this energy so here it goes now that after two weeks and the wonderful healing touch of Malcolm Bishop of Contact Care!  I can sit and write this.

  1.  Look after your physical at this time right up to Christmas.  If your back is playing up it is to do with displaced responsibilities that your body, chakras and energy is trying to show you is imbalanced.   Any pains at this time are illuminating where you are holding onto grief, pain, responsibility and a need to control.   Do that and you end up where I was.  Taken out to heal in conjunction with the energetic changes.  START LOOKING AFTER YOU!!
  2. Stop fighting with yourself  mentally and using distraction as a tool, it’s about looking after you and telling yourself you have no time to rest is just ridiculous.   Your physical body is the only one you have right at this time and this chakra realignment and soul shift is massive.  Believe me, you can feel like you are a jigsaw that someone dropped on the floor and you are trying to reassemble yourself.
  3. Get enough sleep.  I know sleep is erratic, trust me, the changes in body and chakras is throwing all the sleep pattern alignments out of control.  We are doing major energetic realignments and it’s not set to change much apart from a lovely lift coming 15th of November.
  4. Declutter!!   As much as possible, energetically, physically, emotionally!!   We are setting up the new foundation changes for the next five years in this new energy coming in and it is crucial to address what is coming up and let it go.    Old issues will be shown to you so you can let go and heal or let go and change your boundaries.  These are GOOD things.
  5. Give yourself permission to change and allow enough time to do this, it’s an integration people and forcing yourself into a self-imposed time out of health because your body gave out is not the way to do it.   We need to start acknowledging that we need spaces out to allow energetic adjustments.  You are not crazy, you are an awakened being hugely affected by the energetic shifts and acknowledgement of that is massive!
  6. Talk about how you are feeling, you are so not alone!!   Most people are impacted in some way as they just feel different, are aware of change but not knowing what it is.  Talking means unity and Unity is our way forward in supported understanding. Don’t isolate you because you feel deeply or feel affected, you are not alone in this.
  7. Harmonize your Chakras!  Ask for white light energy to flow down through your Crown chakra and help with the realignments, bring in the shades of Violet, Indigo, Blue, Green, Yellow, Orange, Red, and give your changing chakras a helpful boost.
  8. Go see a healer you trust for a detox of emotional baggage.
  9. BE PATIENT, we are in this together as we are reassembling ourselves from DNA outwards, particularly increases in understand and chakra balances.   As we run through the main chakra alignments in the body you will notice changes, heart palpitations, intestine spasms, coughs, sinus’s.  You name it.  If you are worried, see a professional for piece of mind, our bodies will all be responding differently depending on the cellular memory and our stored issues and emotional traumas.

Mostly!  As I am reassembling my own jigsaw puzzle self, give yourself time to adjust.  There is assembly required and like most wonderful things, they need love, permission and time to adjust.     We are evolving and change is a very good thing if we love ourselves through this energy.   Keep shining people we are in this together and this integration too will pass!

PS:  Look if you can take some me time.  I’m heading off to recalibrate myself on a beach in the middle of nowhere for a week. I recommend a day at least to just give yourself space to be fully present with your body.  Your soul and chakras will thank you for it!





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Spirit Whispers: Watching Judgement

Wow, its been ages since I have blogged and I apologise!  There has been so much energy shifts over the last 6 months that I have been flat tack with Upstairs and lovely people working on the changes.

One thing I have noticed over the last couple of months is where those who are shifting forward are simply wrestling with their intolerance and judgement of those who are a little behind or plain old balking at the energy shifts.   That old saying comes to mind completely.  “We fight to hold on, we fight to let go.”

While each person has their own personal journey, once we have started the move forward we can become incredibly frustrated with where others are at.  Spirit has said for years, you must honour each person’s journey.  Which is all well and good in theory but can be really frustrating when you are aware you have changed but feels like you are wading through pea soup energy with everyone else looking at you vacantly!

This energy is very much bringing also illumination to the forefront of what no longer serves us.  Unfortunately unless you communicate that others simply will not know where you are coming from either.  Think of it this way if you have turned up in a certain way for someone for say 3 years or 30 and suddenly you are going “Nope, I know I used to run around after you trying to make you happy, but now I’m done!”  but you don’t say it, you will get some very, very confused people trying to put you back in the role that you have done for them over that period of time.

It can be very easy for your feelings of resentment and frustration to turn to judgement of their behaviour when in reality you are going to have to sit in the uncomfortable knowledge that it was you that created that scenario in the first place by turning up in that way for them.    Trying to get someone to understand that you have changed is quite difficult when they suddenly feel like they are under attack because their lovely accommodating person has disappeared into this, from their point of view, unhelpful, stubborn personality.

These relationship changes are difficult for everyone to transition.  The key is being kind to yourself and to others as you make the stand in how you wish to turn up for yourself now.  Communication and clarity are a key, without judgement.   Externally you seem the same person, they will be asking why now?  Why have you changed now?  and many you will have to gently let go as they won’t want you to change or evolve.

Spirit asks that you gently tell people that you are evolving, and you want to evolve with them, but give yourself space to find the new you as well.   These are changing times and they affect hugely the foundation blocks of who we are developing into over the next five years.

The flowing energy is one that upstairs calls “Truthful Alignment”.  It empowers us to think, live, be, speak, who we are and we need to be giving ourselves approval to do that.  I don’t mean that silly New Age bollocks of telling people you have found your truth and give free license to be as rude as anything.  But a truthful alignment of lovingly owning your own truth and speaking assertively and firmly.

Think of it this way which is the way Spirit explained it to me.  You have parents that told you what you can and can’t do for years.  So you awaited their approval and did things a certain way to get their approval.  Some resented them and did the opposite.  Both ways were a search for approval.   Then teachers, we waited for approval from there for getting it right, and again in some places, that didn’t happen either.  Bosses?  Same thing, we all love the boss saying you did a great job.  Can you see the underlying frequency? Pattern?   Waiting for approval from others?

This energy is going to bring up judgement in you but in reality it is where you are releasing the need to have approval given to you from others.  This is the empowerment push for us to give approval to ourselves to love and appreciate ourselves being “needing” to be approved of by others.  It’s an evolution shift and a powerful change to the dynamics of how we turn up for each other.   Upstairs called it an equalization change in balance of relationships and BOY are we overdue to step into the ownership of approval of ourselves!

So catch yourself when you are judging others for being either slower to wake up or not wanting to evolve.   This is such an individual change and challenge for a lot of us, who do not actually realise what is happening.  Be patient those of you who know you are with those who don’t.    Rome was never built in a day and old philosophies and programming don’t change fast either.   Come from a place of empowerment and love and make the transitions easier for yourself and others.

As ever, we are truthfully all in this together and we need each other to evolve forward in the most positive of ways.


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