Spirit Whispers: Self-ISH

Seriously when Upstairs handed me a machete and a piece of cheese AGAIN in October I was gobsmacked.   This had happened before I left NZ to live in Canada when I was 18 years old.   I was immediately suspicious.   “What’s this for?  I am done carving new pathways!”  I hesitate looking at the items “Aren’t I?”

Reynard, ever patient, ever kind looks at me with such wisdom.  “You know that on the earth plane, there is always change, always evolution and most of it, is how you learn about you.”    I mumble, “Yes but it’s never in a format that doesn’t challenge me is it?”

His eyebrows soar to the roof just about, like eloquent wings of white.  “Why on earth would it not be about you?”      I refrain from my eye roll.   Mehhhhhhhh!!  I don’t want these things!   I tuck them politely away behind me, a move that Reynard smothers a grin at.  Seriously I can tuck them away all I want in denial but things are about to change.

Most of what I have learned about being on the earth plane, is that at a soul level we are pushed by our own soul level evolution.  We either do it ourselves after becoming so restless in ourselves that we finally shift ourselves into change, or we are (lovingly?) positioned by other souls (family and friends) into making massive changes on the back of “I’m DONE being taken advantage of!”  Doesn’t really matter what way it happens, lose someone, get fired, someone has an affair.  Change is there at a base level of your learning because it simply evolves YOU.

I suppose I should in a way be grateful for the heads up that they always give me that something is about to change or give.   So me being me, I “Ostriched” it…  Buried the machete, tucked the cheese in my pocket and filed the good luck note.   (I’m so amusing in my naivety).

All through October and November illuminations came thick and fast I could not be there ENOUGH for people.   That my own needs would be continually put on the back burner, or others needs would take precedence over mine.  I bent and I bent, hobbling along to my lovely healing man to get my painful back sorted and then carrying people some more as it moaned and complained with the weight of my “distorted” responsibility.    As the saying goes “Something’s gotta give”.

Upstairs, when I moaned, pointed simply at the machete, the mouldy cheese and mumbled about filed notes.    Funny what becomes a tipping point really, it always in my book is a straw, yellowed and dried in the hot summer sun, that breaks the camels back.  Relentlessly the energy pressured me to look at what I was doing to myself and more and more people joined beautiful forces to illuminate what I was doing to myself.  Judgement, criticism, rudeness and expectation crashed down on me from an inventive variety of sources until that back broke.

After a night of struggling to breathe as yet again my diaphragm locked its muscles into agonising constriction, I went mental at Elom (my lovely helpful Angel).  He let me vent, lovely golden features and peaceful calm and said “Self-ISH”.   I immediately did my normal trick of trying to blame myself and said “OMG am I being selfish???”

He laughed, bless him.  “You have forgotten in your distraction of needing approval from others, that you have your own needs.  You look at them for a moment and then continue to accommodate others because you have told yourself you are of lesser importance.  You have distorted your reality so much, that you cannot breathe under the pressure to please you have created on yourself.”

Stubbornly stunned pause on my behalf as I consider this and then answer with the one word that Carer Souls use so frequently to justify bending over backwards to please others.  “BUT…”   He frowns those golden features at me not with displeasure but at the speed I am about to justify my behaviour that sacrifices me.   After a pause from me, and an eloquently raised brow from him, I just look at him in silence.  Carer Souls justify to themselves that they are the ONLY ones who can fix things, do things, be there.  Usually totally missing the point they are creating continually Universal Illumination that others will take advantage to try and show them to stop it.

“Self-ISH” he pronounces AGAIN.   “You need to unlearn your habit and relearn a new way of being for yourself.  Without justification, guilt and blame directed at yourself.  You must gently give yourself permission to say “No” without that chorus of voices in your head screeching you are lessor, you should sacrifice you, that you are the only one seeing what needs to be done and doing it.  You need to be SELF-ISH, not PEOPLE-ISH.

You need to approve you as an important person and relearn lovingly to allow yourself room to be yourself first.  You cannot help people with a distorted view of where you fit in your own world.  It is time for you to carve a new way of life for YOU.”

During this advice, it is feeling like an elephant is slowly deciding to get off my diaphragm.  Amazing what the body has been trying to show me all the way along.  Sod it!

Elom showers me in golden petals and they kiss my face like raindrops.  “Time to love you first and then you will have more love for others.”    I have thought about this a lot and I do not believe that he is wrong.  Instead of sitting in resentment that others never think of you.  Think of you first and start the long process of re-educating others that you are not there at the drop of a hat when it suits them.  Personally I think it does require a machete and a piece of cheese and a good luck note as a LOT of people will not be happy with this change in you.   After all have a think about HOW long you have been educating those around you that you will be there for them first and you second?   I bet its been quite some time.

And those screeching voices in your head,  that make you feel guilty for speaking your mind? Saying what you need to?  Finally claiming some space for you?  Tell them to SOD OFF, its time to be SELF-ISH.   We are heading into the most creative energy I have ever seen and its about creating your beautiful life not rescuing the world single-handed even if you are cradling a machete.   Nope, this is about a NEW pathway for YOU, one you carve just for you and if its carved well, then NATURALLY others will want to follow!   Go you, you Pioneer!!!

Personally, I’m back breathing, moving and really well!  Machete in hand, I may not be here to answer every question, I do the best I can and some things OF COURSE, you get to sort yourselves.  Doesn’t mean I love you less, but I’m learning to love me and that too is MY worthwhile investment into me.   So help me through the changes and in turn help yourself!   After all we are in this together!   SELF-ISH here we come!



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Spirit Whispers: Princess/Prince VS Queen/King… Emotionless Warrior VS Emotional Warrior

I have been thinking a long time about this blog and discussing it majorly with “Upstairs”.  There are so many changes happening in this “relationship” energy and its amazing to watch how people handle things and the reasons why they handle things the way they do.

In some ways, this is a two view points blog but its happening to both genders and the fallout is the massive gap in communication in between.   It is not about being the voice of reason the Guides say but how much acceptance we have in terms of shedding responsibility and how much blame we can give ourselves and another.    When they word it that way I kinda cringe, because there really is only an individual perspective for each person in every situation and if we believe that all is exactly the way it should be, then why am I writing this blog.   Simple… Illumination.

We are at a pivotal shift in how we look at each other in relationships.  I am talking mother/father, mother/child, father/child, partner/partner just about every mix you can think of is being adjusted in this monumental shift.   So to try and make it as simple as possible the Guides use some of the following analogies to help it be more clear BUT firstly…  Holding SPACE is crucial at this time and I fundamentally believe because of my own experiences, this is necessary for all parties (if they are willing to evolve) to do.

So here goes…   My definitions in this energy…

Princess/Prince Stage: When you suddenly realise that you have quite a bit of understanding spiritually and wisdom gained physically on your pathway and suddenly from your point of view everyone else is either behind the eight ball or soooo slow to work out what you already have.   Your tolerances are sharp and thin and you cannot stop mentally rolling your eyes at people’s habits and patterns, behaviour and thinking “For God’s sake WAKE UP”  So you decide in your newfound understanding to “express” to people where they are going wrong and have been going wrong in your life, your entire life.  You don’t realise you have been turning up for them in a certain way for years and now you want to change that?  Instead you snap at them, jump down their throats and burn the bridges of friendship because you are DONE with them taking advantage of you!    Hmmz, when you read it that way it sounds terrible doesn’t it?   Suddenly you are wanting to quit your job because you work with idiots, leave a partner because he doesn’t do anything for you and you have been doing stuff for him for years, get rid of all those needy people sponging off you when you thanklessly did stuff for them for years and years.    They are all wrong and you need to get rid of them!  All of them…  *coughs quietly and mutters (Off with their heads!)  Now I am not picking because that would be judgement and in the Princess Stage there is enough judgement to sink the Titanic.  I am merely pointing out, its a really, really valid STAGE and its everywhere at the moment and I have to say women and men alike are “Princing and Princessing” their way across the Universe right now, completely unaware in their vindication of being right, that everyone else is WRONG.  Seriously this is a STAGE but some can own it for a lifetime..   Sure, you have changed and its great that you have recognition that you have, but in this stage, its blame central and everyone the royal eye casts itself on will probably get a tune up….. 


Queen/King Stage: It takes time and vulnerability of self to become a Queen/King.  It takes long looking into situations with patience and an open mind to see that the Universe is responding all the time to the changes in YOU.  Then understanding, most of what is changing is not because of someone else, but rather pivotal shifts in your own growth that makes you see where you have been turning up for people in a vain attempt to keep them happy, when you are actually making them and yourself miserable at the same time.  Queens/Kings rule their worlds with wisdom gained of experiences and self, are vulnerable enough to know they make mistakes and gain from them.   They look at all their subjects as part of their world, their Kingdom and they love them for being a part of it regardless of what learning and growth they bring.   They patiently wait, gently guiding others to be more thoughtful of themselves and so in turn how they deal with others.   They HOLD SPACE waiting for others to work it out and feel supported in their transition.  They don’t blame or judge.  They use careful, caring strategies to place firm, clear, assertive boundaries with clear, assertive communications.    They can have a tantrum at the Universe but acknowledge to self, that all things in balance are part of being human without blaming themselves for not having it all together.    Queens/Kings have earned their role, weathered through enough hard gained wisdom to truthfully know that communication, compassion and honesty pay off in the long run of life.   They look carefully at their relationships and give room and space for the other to grow with them, not forever, but some time.  They are clear in communication of this and regretfully weed out those who will not look at evolving, with love even in the face of tantrums from the outgoing parties.  Good Queens/Kings and I am using these terms as analogies, remember that, listen to the people, keep an open mind.  Recognise needs and awareness of others and patiently keep calm and assertive in recognition of a wider understanding.  They will hold space, an agreement within themselves for a period of time, to allow others to evolve into a deeper understanding.  Very aware that each has their own growth stage, while never compromising themselves for others.


These are not the only fundamental changes that are shifting, but looking at the societal roles in place in this current energy is also changing as well.   I have talked about moving out of “Suffer to Learn” and into “Create to be”.    These are transitions, and stages, and like putting jigsaw puzzle pieces together, we are slowly evolving into better understanding of each other, genders and equality of emotional levels.

I know that there are elementary differences between how males and females think but if we are changing philosophies then the rules have changed also in how we deal with each other.   Most of us have programming from our parents, society.  Heaven forbid, “Roles and Rules” that we were told we had to fulfill that were gender specific.   This energy is challenging so many areas in relationships, we have to pay attention to where we are personally at so we can stop being at such cross purposes.   We have the worst statistics in terms of how we treat relationships than we have ever had and we are falling down on communication with each other massively.    I have been so quiet blogging because I have spent most of my time actively discussing all the changes with upstairs and wondering how the outcomes will fall into place.   They keep showing me glimpses of understanding and how it is slowly, painfully slowly incorporating into our world.    We need to be the change we need in patience and tolerance.


Emotionless Warriors:

I love men, I love the way they think!  Simplicity and at times compartmentalized brain patterns.  Wanna talk about the car, no problem, but don’t interrupt that talk with another subject, sheesh!  I have the car compartment open.   They are gorgeously direct and amazing.  However, seems that I am seeing a lot who have been programmed with the “man up, suck it up” philosophy handed down from generation to generation.   Also I am meeting quite a few women who fit in this category too.   It’s the game of distraction at its best.   I DON’T LIKE FEELING VULNERABLE.   So I will either, ignore the problem, or you.   Distract myself with a task that makes me feel better rather than sitting in how I feel.   Apply a fact or logic so that silly emotional needs can be dismissed.    They simply detest having to feel because of how vulnerable it makes them feel.   The Guides and I discuss this one a lot.  Mostly it is programming, where they have not ever been taught to self nurture, and have a startling lack of love and nurturing through their childhoods.  They have the ability unfortunately to make those who feel to make them feel isolated, lost, alone and emotionally unstable. They can make you feel like YOU are the one with the problem.     BEFORE you want to force them to feel, be aware of this, these amazing people have been damaged by a lack of love.   They actually feel incredibly deeply but they have never been taught HOW to nurture themselves let alone others.   “Upstairs” has a saying…  “You want them to feel, but in reality, it is like sending them outside blindfolded, without a shovel and saying you want a hole dug.”      They have no tools to evolve with until someone lovingly takes time and energy to help them evolve.   Many people will not have the time, energy, communication and love,  and the Prince and Princesses will definitely not.  It takes patience, wisdom and understanding to work with people who have never been loved well.  They struggle to love themselves deeply and yet most feeling based people “expect” them to be emotionally reciprocal when they cannot.    It takes open communication and nurturing, time, and in this energy many do not have the time for it as they are finding they need to work on themselves first which is perfectly okay, but we are all in this together too.  We need to remember that.  They are just as much work as the Prince and Princesses in their avoidance of themselves and love tactics!


Emotional Warriors:

Again few and far between but energetically we are being pushed towards this.  The people who have looked at themselves and said “I will start with me first.”   I will apply wisdom and understanding that I am really important in my own world and it is not selfish.   They allow themselves to experience without judgement all aspects of the emotional spectrum and they are not afraid to show it.    Tears can spring from eyes at the drop of heart based energy and they are not bothered by it.   I have met only a few men who are able to be vulnerable and in touch with their feelings and honour who they are but they are amazing.   They have not sacrificed one little bit of themselves by being vulnerable.  If anything they are stronger for it.  They recover quicker from life issues and challenges and are more in tune with their own needs and those of others.  Women who have run this gauntlet as well are stronger and more in tune with their own lives and clear boundaries and balances.   All are open communicators with balance and understanding.  Please understand no one is expecting anyone to be perfect within this, Emotional Warriors usually work with people to help them find their way back to themselves as well as they know and have experienced the benefits of being in touch with who they truthfully are, warts and all.  Emotional Warriors have experienced suppressing emotions and know how hard it is emotionally, mentally and physically to do this and they won’t.  They have discovered who they are and how they want to turn up in their own life and they were the change they needed to be.


There is no pointing fingers here, there is just illumination of shifts and changes and the challenges that go with it.   The human experience is an evolutionary one, but sometimes stop and hold space for yourself to work it out and see where you are changing and then while you are changing have a look at it in terms of stages.  If you are in a specific stage, then recognition and acknowledgement are crucial because taking it out on everyone else and expecting them to “understand” when maybe they haven’t got that recognition or are even at that stage is cruel.     We need to hold space for ourselves and others, and give patience and tolerance, compassion and love for the growth of us as a collective.  Now is perfect to look at how you are responding in this “relationship” energy as its going right through to February and how we weather this together for ourselves, each other and the world, is how we get through these stages in the end.    It’s my thoughts in conjunction with discussions for months with “Upstairs” put on paper…

As ever I am interested in your thoughts and how you are doing in this shifting pivotal time.   Look after you, learn to hold space for you and others, we truly are in this together.


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Spirit Whispers: Declutter, Unpack, Clear Out!

Well in the last blog I talked about fragmenting and us cracking, or totally feeling like we are cracking into pieces.  So many people I am seeing are asking me, who am I?   I don’t know who I am?

Coming out of “Suffer to learn” we are reassembling ourselves into a new us.  One where we are a priority in our own lives.  Now always when I say this people go, oh that’s just being selfish.  You want me to be selfish?  I get guilty if I do selfish.   I usually go right and do you get resentful when people are asking you to turn up for them instead of you?

It’s a catch 22.  The more you do not feed your soul, the more put out you will be in this energy when people ask you to do things for them. But also remember this…. YOU in the first place programmed all the people around you HOW you would turn up for them.  If you were over compensation their needs than of course they will keep asking, expecting and venting.   I would too, you were wonderful at looking after their needs not yours.

So before you pull the machete and chop their heads off with judgement.  Think of this.  YOU ALLOWED THEM to expect so much from you by doing.    I am seeing so many people instantly finish friendships because of expectations and yet they are not seeing that the arrangement was incredibly one-sided because they LET it be that way.   This is not a time of judgement and disillusionment but rather recognition, acknowledgement and illumination.

To be perfectly honest, when the Guides said that we would head into four months of truthful clarity I was like ohhh awesome people will be more honest.  Well yes the brutal honesty is there but heck people there AIN’T much love going on.  Loads of pointy fingers and yelling more like it and the most yelled?  “That’s IT! I’m done!”     Stop with the catalyst recognition already!    The illuminations are so you can learn about you, not morph down to a tantrum throwing 3 year old.  (Well okay sometimes I do believe that helps because at least its truthful).  However, truthful clarity is about honesty with love.

Everything that is happening at the moment is about empowering you into a better place.  Being more worthy with yourself about your time, your energy and your love.  Upstairs will always preach about you needing to look after you first so you have the energy to then love others.  When we love ourselves unconditionally, we put no conditions on others, so we can acknowledge where their level of learning is, know it’s about them, and rise over the top of it.  ALL WITH LOVE.  Ahemmmm, that actually is a crucial ingredient seriously.

Personally I’m so tired of hearing people tell me how narcassistic that one is, how dangerous a person they are, how manipulative.  All I see when I look is a damaged person who learned how to damage other people.   We need those people though, because they teach us so much about ourselves in so many ways.  Plus they give you amazing choices to grow you.  Every person that I see that has been with a “narcassistic” person has decided they deserved more, needed more, wanted more, learned to love them more.  Okay, Okay, it can be eventually.  But this is a learning realm, and you aren’t really learning about others, but your patience, tolerance and love of YOU.

I know I’m annoying but hey I’m a big picture person, cause all those pieces together brings more understanding.  Most people need to be fully present in the experience, its how we grow and learn and evolve.   However, as I digress the main thing you can do in this energy is:

  1.  Recognise
  2. Acknowledge your role
  3. Inspire yourself with the knowledge
  4. Forgive YOU
  5. Evolve

First start?  Let go of the baggage, stop carrying that heavy stuff with you.  Apply forgiveness for needing to learn it all in the first place, and allow it to fall away.  You gained what you needed from it at the time but to carry it all is making you soul level weary.  Its baggage not just from this life either, but lifetimes.   We are heading towards upgrades, over hauls and recalibration.   Time to definitely throw out the baggage, old shorts, the don’t hurt me, blame and as someone so eloquently said fill in those cracks with loving light to help reheal you into the new person your soul is longing to be.  The one that you allow just to BE, BE LOVED, BE SEEN, BE HONOURED, BE EVOLVED.

The time is perfect.   Four months, clear out, let go, love you a bit more and forgive you passionately for all the learning.  Step away from judgement, criticism and morphing down to kindergarten levels.   All it does is make you resent who you are.

There will be all sorts of challenging energy within this as you fight with you, with others as ego has a play in saying I need to be right in this, hold onto those old outdated values.  Allow all this, its part of the process but whenever you get the chance…. breathe in, blow it out.  Hug yourself in love, and LET IT GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

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Spirit Whispers: Some Assembly Required

Two weeks ago I stretched to get loo paper for the bathroom and felt my entire diaphragm lock up.  Pain stretched from the middle of my back, around my ribs and down into my intestine and pelvis.   I froze in absolute pain and tried doing the shallowest breathing as possible to minimize how much agony I was in.  I simply couldn’t move so began counting as slowly as possible before I tried to straighten up.    None of the muscles were responding and I felt tears stream down my face as I huffed tiny breaths trying to breathe.

This was not my normal back problem that I have had for years in the lower back, this was something else completely.  I felt broken in pieces and ever so slowly taking tiny huffs managed to shuffle upright and to the door.  I squeaked out a help please as I moved out of the bathroom and my son came from his room.  “Jesus Mum!  What the hell you are white as a sheet!”

“Don’t touch me!  Just move things out my way please.” I hiss at him huffing like a train trying to get air into stuck lungs.  I felt like I was in a vice.  I was still crying as I struggled to get to the bedroom and off my back.   Sometimes stretching out flat on my back would pull things back into order.   I look at the bed and suddenly think, OMG I straightened myself up, how the hell do I bend to lie down again.   Bands of agony tighten again as I move to sit and my son holds out arms in case I pitch forward and pass out which is what he is afraid I will do.

Between the two of us I collapse into bed and try breathing.   Nope still no major luck and I cannot see to take the pressure off my diaphragm.  “Go get me painkillers please Love, I can’t do a thing until the pain settles down.”    He sprints off.

I close my eyes and yell inside my head for Elom.   My beautiful Angel Guide appears with a whoosh of wings.  He looks at me considerately.   “We did warn you to take better care of yourself.”   I refrain from swearing at him, he’s not being patronizing, he’s merely stating a fact.   My son is back with pain killers so I swallow two and thank him, ask him to give me some time and I will call if I need him.   Elom waits patiently as I close my eyes and put all my concentration on him.

I have this habit of rising up and away from the physical body when it’s not doing so well.  It annoys the hell out of my family as I distance myself from it but it sure is a heck of a lot nicer than sitting in the pain.   “Okay, firstly did I break something? or is a disc? because it sure as hell feels like I strained my diaphragm!   I have scanned myself and T9 is illuminated and nerves have shot off, locking up intestine and bladder as well as feeling like my ribs are welded.”

Elom looks at me carefully.   “We asked you take some time off to recalibrate both your aura, chakras and physicality.   You have not.”    I roll my eyes mentally at him.  “I am, in a couple of weeks I am going away for a week to the middle of nowhere, so yes I heard and I am.”

“You know the alignment of the Universe also co-incides with changes of the energy and the physical and you also know that up to Christmas is part of the re-assembly of assignments of soul, soul alignments and chakra integration.”   Again, I try not to roll my eyes, I have been Upstairs most nights working towards this DNA structure and integrated chakra system realignment.    I sigh impatiently and do my normal irritating habit which is “yup, yup, yup, yup.”

Thank God Elom is as patient as he is.   “In order for those alignments to integrate fully with the human body, you must also surrender to allowing the physical to adjust to these changes.   You have not.”

“Oh look this is probably all because of falling through that rotten canvas deck chair last Christmas and hitting my head and tailbone, it’s still bloody numb!”   He sighs and for a little moment he lights up golden like a Christmas tree light.

“It is very irritating when you keep pushing boundaries when we are trying to help integrate the changes.”

Me indignantly “What reaching for loo paper for the bathroom??”

As you can see the conversation was circular and to my end just a distraction from coming back into my extremely pained body.    At the end of the conversation Elom did actually ask me to tell you what to do in this energy so here it goes now that after two weeks and the wonderful healing touch of Malcolm Bishop of Contact Care!  I can sit and write this.

  1.  Look after your physical at this time right up to Christmas.  If your back is playing up it is to do with displaced responsibilities that your body, chakras and energy is trying to show you is imbalanced.   Any pains at this time are illuminating where you are holding onto grief, pain, responsibility and a need to control.   Do that and you end up where I was.  Taken out to heal in conjunction with the energetic changes.  START LOOKING AFTER YOU!!
  2. Stop fighting with yourself  mentally and using distraction as a tool, it’s about looking after you and telling yourself you have no time to rest is just ridiculous.   Your physical body is the only one you have right at this time and this chakra realignment and soul shift is massive.  Believe me, you can feel like you are a jigsaw that someone dropped on the floor and you are trying to reassemble yourself.
  3. Get enough sleep.  I know sleep is erratic, trust me, the changes in body and chakras is throwing all the sleep pattern alignments out of control.  We are doing major energetic realignments and it’s not set to change much apart from a lovely lift coming 15th of November.
  4. Declutter!!   As much as possible, energetically, physically, emotionally!!   We are setting up the new foundation changes for the next five years in this new energy coming in and it is crucial to address what is coming up and let it go.    Old issues will be shown to you so you can let go and heal or let go and change your boundaries.  These are GOOD things.
  5. Give yourself permission to change and allow enough time to do this, it’s an integration people and forcing yourself into a self-imposed time out of health because your body gave out is not the way to do it.   We need to start acknowledging that we need spaces out to allow energetic adjustments.  You are not crazy, you are an awakened being hugely affected by the energetic shifts and acknowledgement of that is massive!
  6. Talk about how you are feeling, you are so not alone!!   Most people are impacted in some way as they just feel different, are aware of change but not knowing what it is.  Talking means unity and Unity is our way forward in supported understanding. Don’t isolate you because you feel deeply or feel affected, you are not alone in this.
  7. Harmonize your Chakras!  Ask for white light energy to flow down through your Crown chakra and help with the realignments, bring in the shades of Violet, Indigo, Blue, Green, Yellow, Orange, Red, and give your changing chakras a helpful boost.
  8. Go see a healer you trust for a detox of emotional baggage.
  9. BE PATIENT, we are in this together as we are reassembling ourselves from DNA outwards, particularly increases in understand and chakra balances.   As we run through the main chakra alignments in the body you will notice changes, heart palpitations, intestine spasms, coughs, sinus’s.  You name it.  If you are worried, see a professional for piece of mind, our bodies will all be responding differently depending on the cellular memory and our stored issues and emotional traumas.

Mostly!  As I am reassembling my own jigsaw puzzle self, give yourself time to adjust.  There is assembly required and like most wonderful things, they need love, permission and time to adjust.     We are evolving and change is a very good thing if we love ourselves through this energy.   Keep shining people we are in this together and this integration too will pass!

PS:  Look if you can take some me time.  I’m heading off to recalibrate myself on a beach in the middle of nowhere for a week. I recommend a day at least to just give yourself space to be fully present with your body.  Your soul and chakras will thank you for it!





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Spirit Whispers: Watching Judgement

Wow, its been ages since I have blogged and I apologise!  There has been so much energy shifts over the last 6 months that I have been flat tack with Upstairs and lovely people working on the changes.

One thing I have noticed over the last couple of months is where those who are shifting forward are simply wrestling with their intolerance and judgement of those who are a little behind or plain old balking at the energy shifts.   That old saying comes to mind completely.  “We fight to hold on, we fight to let go.”

While each person has their own personal journey, once we have started the move forward we can become incredibly frustrated with where others are at.  Spirit has said for years, you must honour each person’s journey.  Which is all well and good in theory but can be really frustrating when you are aware you have changed but feels like you are wading through pea soup energy with everyone else looking at you vacantly!

This energy is very much bringing also illumination to the forefront of what no longer serves us.  Unfortunately unless you communicate that others simply will not know where you are coming from either.  Think of it this way if you have turned up in a certain way for someone for say 3 years or 30 and suddenly you are going “Nope, I know I used to run around after you trying to make you happy, but now I’m done!”  but you don’t say it, you will get some very, very confused people trying to put you back in the role that you have done for them over that period of time.

It can be very easy for your feelings of resentment and frustration to turn to judgement of their behaviour when in reality you are going to have to sit in the uncomfortable knowledge that it was you that created that scenario in the first place by turning up in that way for them.    Trying to get someone to understand that you have changed is quite difficult when they suddenly feel like they are under attack because their lovely accommodating person has disappeared into this, from their point of view, unhelpful, stubborn personality.

These relationship changes are difficult for everyone to transition.  The key is being kind to yourself and to others as you make the stand in how you wish to turn up for yourself now.  Communication and clarity are a key, without judgement.   Externally you seem the same person, they will be asking why now?  Why have you changed now?  and many you will have to gently let go as they won’t want you to change or evolve.

Spirit asks that you gently tell people that you are evolving, and you want to evolve with them, but give yourself space to find the new you as well.   These are changing times and they affect hugely the foundation blocks of who we are developing into over the next five years.

The flowing energy is one that upstairs calls “Truthful Alignment”.  It empowers us to think, live, be, speak, who we are and we need to be giving ourselves approval to do that.  I don’t mean that silly New Age bollocks of telling people you have found your truth and give free license to be as rude as anything.  But a truthful alignment of lovingly owning your own truth and speaking assertively and firmly.

Think of it this way which is the way Spirit explained it to me.  You have parents that told you what you can and can’t do for years.  So you awaited their approval and did things a certain way to get their approval.  Some resented them and did the opposite.  Both ways were a search for approval.   Then teachers, we waited for approval from there for getting it right, and again in some places, that didn’t happen either.  Bosses?  Same thing, we all love the boss saying you did a great job.  Can you see the underlying frequency? Pattern?   Waiting for approval from others?

This energy is going to bring up judgement in you but in reality it is where you are releasing the need to have approval given to you from others.  This is the empowerment push for us to give approval to ourselves to love and appreciate ourselves being “needing” to be approved of by others.  It’s an evolution shift and a powerful change to the dynamics of how we turn up for each other.   Upstairs called it an equalization change in balance of relationships and BOY are we overdue to step into the ownership of approval of ourselves!

So catch yourself when you are judging others for being either slower to wake up or not wanting to evolve.   This is such an individual change and challenge for a lot of us, who do not actually realise what is happening.  Be patient those of you who know you are with those who don’t.    Rome was never built in a day and old philosophies and programming don’t change fast either.   Come from a place of empowerment and love and make the transitions easier for yourself and others.

As ever, we are truthfully all in this together and we need each other to evolve forward in the most positive of ways.


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Spirit Whispers: Shifting changes

And wheeeee where has the time gone.  My apologies for not blogging, so much it seems has been going on in this amazing shifting energy.

August is unfolding in such an interesting way.  It has been fascinating to help people understand what is changing within them at a soul level.  The releasing of responsibilities seems to be especially challenging in some instances for people.  Seems to be there is still a lot of denial of self going on and also the old structure, or philosophy has been making people really believe that there is something wrong with them that they are not turning up carrying all the responsibilities for everyone or even want to carry that responsibility any more.

I spent some time in the Off worlds looking at the harmonic changes the new structure is bringing in.  Always good to have the heads up with whats coming, it is also crucially important that we don’t skip any of the steps down here in the process.

I laughed at what my Guide said.  He shook his head sadly and commented.

“As human beings you do love to avoid the obvious until the Universe brings it around with a colossal slap to the head for you to pay attention to.”   I laughed.

“I thought you told me that the point of the human experience was to be fully present in each experience so we learn the value of growth?”

He laughed then “Yes but you are all so stubborn at times.”

Well they have that right.   We fight to hold on, we fight to let go basically and fear that any changes that we bring in will cost us in some way.  Transition through the other side of any learning and then see in hindsight how it taught us, empowered us, or humbled us.  What a fascinating journey.

The one thing also I have noticed is in the work I do with the Guides and in the off worlds, I do have a tendency to get distracted by the big picture stuff a lot and then get completely confused when I remember that people transitioning through this energy can find the whole process completely confusing. So in an effort to be helpful here’s a list of the transitions at the moment you may be experiencing.

  1. Thoughts dropping out of your head.  This is where your brain synapses are shifting frequency.  Please try to make notes for yourself and allow the rewiring PLEASE. This is across the board, adults and children, so make your communication concise and honest.
  2. Restlessness… Not just restlessness but that disgruntled, gawd I’m over this, restlessness.   This one is just your soul saying pay attention you are needing to transition.  Stop hiding yourself in the Distraction Game!  You are being pulled at a soul level to evolve.
  3. Intolerance for your current situation or people.  This one is crucial to work with because it will save you a heap of heartache if you don’t blame everyone else for feeling this way.  Denial of self is the worst way to deal with this stage.  Throwing yourself into more responsibility will make it worse. It IS about you and it’s time to look at your needs.
  4. Acknowledge its an internal change.  That your outside world is responding in so many ways to you but changing the job while good for you, may not be the change that you need for you.   Think about how YOU are turning up for you.
  5. Keep breathing!  When we are transitioning we can spiral so badly into self blame and cause ourselves such anxiety.  Feelings are so important to flow through but we can hold ourselves in a funk in this energy for ages as we fight with acceptance in self of evolution.
  6. Congratulate yourself on how far you have come and know that this is actually an empowering stage.  One that you have never been in before.  Stop expecting epiphanies to slap you in the head telling you where to go next.  This is an evolution of self.  Put fun things in and positive things to focus on but no one ever rushes making a fantastic cake.  Stop doing the same to you.
  7. Time out’s.  Give yourself these so you can harmonize yourself as you will feel like you are burning through energy and can over tire you.   Get the sleep you need for you and if the sleep is restless, waking a lot.  It is because you are integrating energy into the body so it’s a little stop/start at times.
  8. Headaches/heart palpitations, these are all signs of energy shifts.  Keep your water intake up and hydrate yourself.  Avoid the “treat” foods to make you feel better as you may find you are not fussed on those either at the moment.
  9. Allergies surfacing.  These are indicators of your own tolerances as well with foods, dusts etc.  As we change in our bodies these can be accelerated or exacerbated.  Pay attention to what your body is showing you and make allowances, its a transition period.

August is a great month for cracking through the final stages of frustration and getting to the nitty gritty of the foundations you are building for the next stage.  But don’t forget to address the left over energy and frustrations from the last stage.  You don’t build a house on old foundations so this is a bit like picking up the last of the old buried bits that make your new foundations wobbly.  Dig deep, sort them and allow the new foundations to build in energy as they work through into your consciousness.

You are the solution and key to your new stage.  Invest into you well with recognition and acknowledgement and know that each person addresses these stages independently, so be patient with you and patient with everyone else as well!  We are always and in all ways in this together!




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Spirit Whispers: The Crunch before the Release

“Oh My Dear, what if I fall?  Oh my Darling, what if you fly?”    All of the soul aspects are struggling at the moment to keep their flow and momentum.  Most people I am seeing are questioning all of a sudden, What is my purpose?  Where did my Mojo go?  I used to love my work, now I don’t know whats wrong with me?      I kind of want to scoop up so many people and hug them and say please stop.   Stop thinking there is something wrong with you.

Think about it this way, if you have been operating under a philosophy for thousands of years that says others are more important than you are, you are so very used to looking after others.  No where in that equation did you stop and look after you.   This is the whole basis of the suffer to learn philosophy.  It’s not called Suffer to Learn for nothing!  However, within the changes of yourself and the soul releases, you are being gently pushed, pulled, cajoled, and in some cases yes forced! to see your own importance finally.

Most are finding this crippling to themselves as their bodies go into meltdown, brains get tormented as you drastically try and convince yourself there is something wrong with you and force yourself into an old energy that does not serve you.  Its like backing yourself energetically against a wall and then systematically bashing your head against it over and over again.  The only way you really realise how important you are is when your own health is affected.   Either mental health, or physical health.  It forces you to realise you need to change things.   This is not about suffering but illumination of what needs to change so you get to have a more fulfilling life and before you wail you like helping people, I will stop you right there.     You didn’t change your SOUL aspect, you are changing with your soul support.   You are still your own soul type with what you came to do, but now there is a change, and the change is your own importance as well.

Most souls are awesome avoiders of their own self.  They have been looking after others for so long, they feel like they are failures if they do not continue to do this.   Unfortunately the only person they are failing is themselves.   Self care is NOT embraced in our current Society and the guilt and shame some souls carry at feeling like a failure by an impossible standard is just cruel.  You are not here to save the world, you are here to start with you first and if your own body is showing you how, then you need firstly to be paying attention to that.   We all can say the right thing, but this energy is about empowerment and doing it, not just mouthing the words and going back to bad habits again and again.

As I re-read I think, oh dear that sounds like a telling off, but to be perfectly honest are you listening?  to you?   Its crunch time, and its becoming more and more important every day for you to believe in you what you can create and I know that I have talked about this over about three different blogs or more but the bottom line is the energy has already changed Gorgeous People and the disharmony that you are experiencing is from an inability to recognise it at a beautifully, naughty, human level!

I had a change of Guides recently and I am so conscious of how human I can be and am supposed to be when Guides change.  I think I don’t like getting to know someone again but then I always benefit from it in the long run.  This is exactly like that you are going to benefit hugely from it, so gorgeous people get out of your own way.    If a situation and a circumstance is repeating, look for the illumination of it,  it simply is where you are being shown all the areas of learning you have now finished with and need to move on from.   You deserve to be in the lighter energy and what you are setting up now, will have impacts over the next five years this is why I and a lot of other people are being so persistent about moving us forward.  It’s simply important for you.

I was working in the Off worlds the other day and watching new colours and energies moving towards the earth plane and thinking about how empowering these colours are and then listening to the frustrations from the other side about our lack of acceptance of changes, the slow evolution of ourselves.   We do need to be really aware of frustration at this time, its a process learning to give ourselves permission to be the Creative Beings that we truly are.

As always right before the epiphany, we always fight the hardest to hold onto our old ways.  If you are choosing to do this, you will be stuck in between a rock and a hard place as the momentum moving forward just puts the squeeze on you.    This blog is really a vain attempt to help you realise that you do not need to do that to yourself that the releasing of the old energy brings in a surge of the new and that tired, frustrated feeling will just drop away as you stop fighting to remain in an energy that is completely draining you.

As we near the end of June, expect a few more stop/start energies as we are shown what we need to let go of and stop resenting these too, they are truly just illuminations of our owned bad habits in so many ways and only through illumination do we see what we didn’t before.   Keep your chin up, the energies are moving slowly but surely.  Keep wading but keep recognising that the only squashing on you, is what you think you are giving up, when you are actually gaining from letting go.

Find your brave, you Gorgeous Light and stop fighting to hold onto the old you as a new you is emerging!



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