Spirit Whispers: The Pause Button

Ever feel like you are Tangoing through your own life.  One step forward and one step backwards.  This energy at the moment is very much like that.  We are releasing so much old stuff at so many levels that we forget that we need to pause.   In the pause, we reassess and get to where we need to be for ourselves as well.

In my usual impatience with the energy, I decided to pick Samael’s brain (do they have a brain) about why we struggle so much with communing with the Universe and even our perception of God ending in why don’t we feel listened to.    In only the way Samael would, he took me to the Garden of Eden.   I often wonder, since I am not religious in any way, why they show me things out of the bible.  However, I do understand this, that grains of truth are in everything and even though I am not of any denomination, I truthfully LOVE the energy of churches, of devotion and of love.  Now, grains of truth, may not be the exact truth but there is always wisdom and understanding to be gained if you just PAUSE for a moment and consider.  In my case, its always pause and then give the third degree because I am nosy, but its still a pause.

The Garden of Eden was truly beautiful, all the spaces of the world combined in one place. I asked a question that I have been longing to ask for ages.  “Was Adam lonely really?”   Samael laughed “Adam could hear God and commune with all the animals and nature, so no he was not lonely.   Mostly human beings are group beings, they need to belong and it was that want of belonging in Adam that caused God to create another complimentary being.”   I look at him suspiciously.  “You know I have always been kind of suspicious of the bible.”   He laughed again.   “There is learning here if you allow me to continue.”

Any hint of learning for me is divine so why not.   “Why did God stop talking to Adam and throw him out of the Garden then?”  Seriously, I have these questions, doesn’t everyone?  Again, laughter from Samael and then he replied.  “No man has been cut off from God, the Divine or the Universe.  Man’s perception he is of lesser value, or is unable to commune with the Divine is what truthfully holds human beings back.”    I frown.  “So you are saying that we believe we cannot be heard, or that the voices that we hear in our heads at times are just imagination or ourselves talking?”   Samael nods.  “When you are talking to me during the day, could you believe you are talking to yourself?”   I think about that for a moment, because I have spent so long talking with others in my head that it just seems plain wrong to not have them there.

“If I didn’t understand that there was something else I suppose I would, but I would feel so terribly alone in my thoughts.”     Samael nods again.  “Do you think also if you dismiss that you possibly can talk with your thoughts to others, other worlds, to the Universe, to God, then that avenue would be closed to you?”    I consider that again.  “Well if no one mentioned it, then no probably not.”   I keep thinking about the isolation of that thought and how much I would hate to be alone in my own head, it kept making me sadder and sadder.

“So why do I remember being able to talk to you guys?  Why doesn’t everyone?”   Samael asks me “Do you remember when you were little what you did?  In your head?”   I laugh, it still makes me feel a bit mortified.  I must have been about 4 years old and it was dark and scary and I felt so alone “I yelled in my head for help.  I didn’t just yell I screamed for help, for someone to come and make me feel not so alone.”   He laughed.  “Yes, you did and LOUDLY.   Do you know where it went?”   I reply “I thought it out, to space to everywhere, please hear me and come.”   He smiled, “what happened?”   I laugh I love this memory so much.  “Blue hands came and held me and a voice that sounded so calm and so loving said I’m here.”    I smile with the memory, those hands made me feel so very, very loved.  So loved in fact I never asked where the rest of the body was!  I laugh about it now but I still feel the same way completely and utterly.    That love is the main reason I talk to Angels and Guides, I simply love that feeling of being supported and so very loved.

“Do you now think you can talk to the Universe, God, the Angels and Spirit?”   I smile “Yes, because I had hope.”    “Do you remember visiting the Prayer Room?”  I smile again another place I love so much.  “Yes very much so.”      “When you come to these places, talk to us and walk with us, is it because you believe you can?  Is it your choice?”  I smile again, “very much so.”    “Then so it is.”     The air spins around us and the beautiful garden fades.  “It was not so much that God stopped talking, it was a choice, a choice whether you believe that you are heard or not.   In expecting to not be heard, even though you are, you expect not to get an answer.   A long time ago people forgot to listen, not because they were to be told what to do, that has always been free choice to listen, to grow, to learn.   They forgot to trust themselves to hear and doubt came in and isolation came after that.”    Again, I feel sad.

“Crikey, Samael, sounds like some sad myth or legend.”  He laughs and lightens the energy.  “Everything is a choice, in all ways.   Sometimes in the pause, you get room to listen, to decide, sometimes within quiet, there is always a solution.  Sometimes when you yell loud enough in your head, there is an answer.   No one knows unless they test it, unless they have faith in trusting that there will be an answer.    Mostly we answer by signs because you seem to trust signs more than words in your head or voices.  So we work away trying to help as much as possible until you remember it’s a choice.”

I think for a while on that.   So we chose and we choose but mostly we don’t trust ourselves to have an answer.  I don’t seek answers from the Guides, I talk to them about things I am interested in, their comments in the same way as I would teachers or people who I value their opinion on the earth plane.  All of those snippets become like a jigsaw puzzle I putting together, of what resonates with my soul, my truth and my hope.  I seek wisdom and understanding everywhere because it broadens my understanding of life and others as well.

We are in a little pause energy at the moment.  Reflection of how far we have come and what we need for ourselves moving forward.  Mostly I think we are yelling out to the Universe for understanding but not expecting an answer.  I think we need to maybe pause for a bit in the energy and be truthful with ourselves about what we want.  Out of our lives, ourselves and the bigger picture, because sometimes the smaller picture just is a bit sucky for a time.  Personally, I am using the pause time to de-clutter those thoughts that no longer serve me, habits that are no longer serving me and giving myself permission to create more room to have time to grow a little more.   In the pause I can hear me, the deep part of me that needs to be listened to.  It’s calling me, from within, from the Universe, maybe even the Divine.   But I need to listen because I haven’t for a long time and I need to re-teach myself to listen clearly again.  The answers always were there and now its time for us to pause and listen for ourselves.

This is a reflection time, but its a good reflection time.  Worthwhile if you sit and look at how far you have come and how much you have grown.  Then it is worth asking that question to yourself.   What am I planning for me, what gives me hope, joy and a sense of purpose.   Then listen to your soul and see what comes back.  If you cannot decide or it’s not slapping you in the face like a wet fish, then its time to give yourself permission to play at a few things so you can redirect you and re-educate you on what makes your soul sing.   Give it a try…  Sooner or later you’ll push the play button and worlds can open then, but the pause?  it’s worth sitting in for a bit.





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Spirit Whispers: Challenging releases of Truthful Alignment..

Sooo how you all surviving the four planet retrograde that is going on in April.  When the Guides said that April would be a conflicting month I just nodded like I normally do and went on working.  However, as the energy shifts and changes, it has become slightly more challenging again as trying to hold onto your old habits is now starting to wear yourself thin.

Look I cannot stress enough this. If you are going to force yourself into an old energy flow that no longer serves you, you will get sick.  It’s a bit like listening to an eighties record over and over again.  As much as you think you love the music at some point it will grate on you if you listen to it too much.    I am fielding so many phone calls from people asking me why the are getting sick, to look at their auras and their soul pathways to see that they have completed what they needed to under the old energy but are refusing to acknowledge that THEY have changed.

I will spell it out really simply…. If you have the following symptoms or thoughts you are changing frequency and need to honour yourself and others in this process.

  1. Headaches and slight dizzy spells, like mild vertigo.
  2. Frustration coming in instantly someone expects you to do something for them.
  3. Resentment of always feeling like you are the one who has to take responsibility
  4. Looking at friends and family with new eyes and not liking how much they take you for granted.
  5. Stomach and bowel complaints that seem to make you feel more upset internally  than usual.
  6. Fatigue in waves and not feeling like you are sleeping well.
  7. Tearful emotional episodes when you feel like you are on a roller coaster.
  8. Feel like no one listens to your problems
  9. Isolation away from friends because you feel like what they find important is shallow.

Looks at the list again, yes well you could be confused and think these sound like PMT symptoms.  However, when women have PMT they are going through hormone changes!  It’s exactly the same thing at an energy level but its not PMT, but its affecting men and women as well, we are all not that dissimilar you know.  Men are just more likely to settle more deeply into themselves and not communicate while grumping about the world.     Its making the genders brush up against each other in not the most positive of ways.

Truthful alignment requires you to be that, TRUTHFUL and if you are continuing to work in a role that you hate, hours that are too long, pressures from family for their commitments and you are getting exhausted then the Universe has no alternative but to help you see how important you are using the only tool it has for you to notice the change in frequency.  YOUR BODY.  Sooooo, here’s a list of how your body responds when you are pushing it into a frequency that doesn’t serve it any more.

  1. Mental fatigue – Headaches  – cause, Overthinking and over analysing how unhappy you are but not doing anything about it.
  2.  Blurry Vision or flashes of Light – cause Vision being affected by what you don’t want to see and are avoiding seeing where you need to make the changes in your life.   The flashes of light are Spirit desperately trying to get your attention to see the world a different way.
  3. Stomach aches – cause not being able to stomach the current energy and feeling sick when coming in contact with people draining your frequency.  Solar plexus is the first indicator that you cannot “stomach” something anymore
  4. Bowel disharmony – cause (Now every time I say this people laugh, but its a fact) your bowel processes waste and when you are holding onto energetic shit, either yourself or others, it’s here.  Nine times out of ten, bowel inflammation is caused by aggravation to the digestive tract either by foods ingested, or energy.  If you have a sensitive bowel, this will be where you shove energetically your own drama and other people’s crap. LITERALLY.
  5.  Neck Aches – cause carrying responsibilities that are not yours to carry causes the neck muscles to tense up completely in an attempt to carry the weight.  You have all seen the picture of the man carrying the world on his shoulders.  Please make a mental note.  YOU are not here to save the world single handed.  When you are taken out with illness the world goes on. PERIOD.
  6. Back Aches – Again responsibility strikes again and while yes, we can all carry things the wrong way and not bend our backs properly.  This one is mostly muscular and tension based.  Responsibility to carry others always brings up back problems and more so in this energy of truthful alignment.
  7. Uterus – Sorry but the human body is a pocket the more you get inventive, the more you find places to stuff your hurt and drama.   This organ symbolises nurturing.  Lack of it to self and to others gets shoved in here constantly and forgotten about, until symptoms come back to remind you that you need to nurture you at a health level.  Ladies, don’t do this please!   Nurture you and you have room to nurture others…
  8. Prostrate – cause, hiding anger and frustration at an emotional level in your root chakra.   Gorgeous men, you are the new warriors and its time you need to sort out your emotional baggage.  Men feel vulnerable talking about their emotions but when you don’t mostly you hide it with anger and the root chakra is an awesomely harmful place to store it.   Remember no one is immune in this energy, its one of change.   Your awareness is crucial.
  9. Heart – cause is emotional imbalances.  Heart the seat of our emotional state is often smothered, squashed and hidden.  Our heart beats faster when we are upset and the more we try to hide it the more we put this fabulous organ under pressure.  Giving in to your emotions doesn’t mean you fall to bits.  It means you give yourself truthful alignment to say your emotional needs.   Gorgeous people stop hiding the truth in your heart.  Give yourself permission to acknowledge how you feel.
  10. Throat – cause – You know that annoying tickle that appears out of nowhere and suddenly you are choking and spluttering and embarrassed that everyone is looking at you. That kicker is when you won’t say what you need to and your body goes into a spasmodic affect to try to get you to clear off your voice cords what you need to.   Stop hiding your thoughts, truthful alignment asks that you freely speak with love what you think.   Stop punishing you.

Please just have a think about what I am pointing out.  If you can see spaces where your beautiful body is showing you in this current energy how inventive you are about avoiding what you need to change, then you and only you need to ask yourself how do I look after me in this process.   To do that I have another list to remind you off.

  1. There will always be another job.
  2. You cannot fail ever, you just change pathway.
  3. Give yourself permission to grow and move from where you are trapped.  You did that you can change it.
  4. Money will flow if you stop over focussing on it.  Learn the laws of Abundance and live breathe them.
  5. Relationships change because you changed, thank them for what they brought you, try harder in them or walk away knowing you did your best.   Neither will be easy but only you can decide if you have had enough or its worth it.  Stop fixing everything!
  6. Accept – Accept that changes happen and you are changing.  Stop fighting with yourself to be the old you.  You aren’t and there is no going back.  Suck it up buttercup you are beautifully evolving.   BE YOU, do your thing…

Hugs you all warmly and hugely, you are not alone in this energy so don’t think you are isolated, find your tribe, people who get it, people who listen and help you grow.  Break free from the chains of the past and give yourself permission in your truth.  It is you that you have been waiting for.   Now is simply perfect to start changing and acknowledging it.



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Spirit Whispers: Truthful Alignment

You know when the Guides said that the philosophy of the planet would be changing at a human level, we go okay, no problems then, but I do not believe we completely understand the entirety at times of the change.

Under the old philosophy of “Suffer to Learn” we spent time going from crisis to crisis in order to learn what we needed to by sheer persistence and because of that philosophy there was also a tremendous amount of Carer Souls incarnating to help us through this time which has been perfect.   This integration into the new philosophy has been interesting and I personally feel like a new student trying to relearn how to be and how to re-educate both myself and my body into the new integration of creating what we need for ourselves.

The one thing I have been talking about with them over the past month is the impact of “truthful alignment” in the unfolding new tapestry of frequency.   Ultimately we used to be telepathic, but in order for us to be completely telepathic we would have to be much, much more honest with ourselves first and then with others.  To this end though I have noticed more and more people coming asking me what is wrong with them.  That their tolerances are shot with people, that things are coming out their mouths without them thinking about it and they are feeling really confronted with their own feelings in the face of either discussions, or difficulties with others.

All of this, is, of course, completely on track with truthful alignment.  However, the sticky bit is and it does get sticky, is HOW truthful you want to be.    It is very easy when you are transitioning to think that no one else gets you.   That your friends and family are now beyond you even wanting to be in the same room with them, let alone the same planet and it is where people are saying I am at my loneliest right now.  This is where judgement is way too easy to come in and isolate you.   The reality is that you are not isolated or lonely, you are just maybe transitioning faster, or slower or “limboing” (which is that cement shoes wading through waist deep mud feeling).     Blurting while incredibly therapeutic for yourself may be intensely uncomfortable and confronting for your people who know you as the mediator or the peace maker of the friends and family.

I have found personally that I simply cannot refrain from commenting when in the past I have just been quiet about what I have not been happy about and tried to keep the peace as much as possible.   Ummmmm you could say that I am enormously failing at that right now.     The key to truthful alignment is indeed allowing yourself to be honest about how you feel but in the middle of that do not forget also your core fundamental truths.  Honesty with love, respect and kindness has an assertiveness all of its own.  Blunt force trauma about someone’s lineage or selfishness is neither assertive or helpful as MOST and I seriously mean this, do NOT see their own projections or learnings EVEN when loudly pointed out to them and they are not meant to.  THAT is part of their learning.

So then the question becomes in truthful alignment, how to honour how you feel without creating World War III.  In some cases by all means you may be ready to create that war, however what does it truthfully serve you in the long run.   We all know how it feels to not be heard, not be honoured in our feelings and our thoughts which is why we learned to keep them to ourselves in the first place.  But this isn’t about other people’s behaviours or even their soul level learning down here.  This is truthful alignment of self, in self for self.

You are no longer serving you to smother your emotional state and rational mind is fast losing control in this energy except to pick at you guilty when you do blurt out exactly what you think and that doesn’t help either.    The key in this energy is allowing yourself room to grow into this new energy of self-assertiveness with love.  We are all evolving, everyone at different rates.  Some people will simply refuse to accept the new energy and that is perfect.  Some people will fight to hold onto the old energy and accuse you of changing and that is perfect too, you are.   On this amazing free choice planet, everything is always for our optimum individual learning, exactly as it should be.   But while you are fighting with yourself about trying to get back into the box you were in before with situations, work and people remember this.   It AIN’T your box anymore.  If you have already noticed that you don’t fit that mould, you will be spiraling into resentment and frustration every time someone tries to stuff you back into it.

When I asked the Guides about it, they said in our fight to smother our emotional states, we have done harm to our permissive selves and we are having to relearn how to give ourselves permission to be.   This is a new concept under the new philosophy and one that is making us feel like we are feeling around in the dark and wondering how to turn up, what is our purpose and where to from here.    It seemed to be far, far easier to suffer, we know that one, and we can look for it anywhere.  However, to be able to create what we want?   What the heck?  Where do you even start.

Upstairs keep showing it to me as people with these new beautiful pathways forming and them busy throwing trees and scrubs in their own path because they have never, ever given themselves permission to BE.  BE happy, BE alive, BE emotional, BE present, BE honest, BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.    It’s a new philosophy people and its one of tremendous change, 3000 odd years of living under the old one, is not going to be done in 2 seconds flat.

We are adjusting and letting go of old responsibilities in our body structures (watch out for head, neck and shoulders with that release) and in our actual cellular structure.  It’s a process and it takes time to integrate in self and it takes time for our bodies to get used to the release changes too.   Expect illuminations as you are shedding old ways.  Expect lightness of mind, brain and dizziness, headaches, muscles aching.    You have been carrying stuff over many, many lives, ditching that stuff energetically is not only exhausting but your body has to readjust to not carrying that energetic weight too!   It is very much time to pay attention to what is really happening to you.

This is the shedding, the unlearning of all that has been before and you are slap bang in the middle of the process Gorgeous Lights.   There is more going on than just feeling totally intolerance and stuff falling out of your mouth when you least expect it.  This is truthful alignments in relationships, and relationships will change as you change the relationship you have had with yourself in the perception of what you were carrying in responsibilities.    It is so very, very important to be kind to yourself at this time.  Add truthful expression with love to your vocabulary and watch out for snaps of intolerance as who you are dealing with may not be there yet, or even be able to get there.  Try not to crucify them and yourself during this process.

This is the time to seek your tribe, the ones who want to be free enough to work with themselves and be honest enough to allow you to be you without the bonds of responsibility and denial of emotional self.   I want to also say you are not going to fall to bits surrendering to the truth of you.  You may go through some emotional ups and downs as you free you into truthful alignment but it is infinitely quicker than smothering emotions and being in the hurt for days and days, months and years like you have been doing.

The main purpose of this blog is to let you know you are not alone, so many people I have seen over the last 6 months are in this integration and we are seriously all in this together.  Tell people you are evolving, own that with all your heart if you are, explain you have a need to express how you feel and they are not to fix it, deny it, tell you it’s wrong, but rather just hold space for you to evolve into who you need to be in the truth of you.  It as I have said is not a five-minute process, it’s a process and we need sometimes to surrender to just being in the process rather than pushing and shoving our way through it in a need to get out the other side.  You are heading there anyway, slow down and appreciate the recognition in self of the change and then start loving you for your unlearning.

The truth is the real you has been smothered emotionally for years and its time, Gorgeous Lights, to start the journey to freedom of self to be yourself.   Now, in this energy, acknowledgement and recognition are all you need to start with.

Repeat after me….   “I’m evolving, unlearning and re-educating me on how to be me and I need to love me through this” ….. You so got this!

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Spirit Whispers: The Empath and the Avoidant… The change of connection

Cue me talking to the Guides.  “Bloody hell the relationship changes are coming thick and fast in this new energy aren’t they? and it feels like walking through flipping cement!  I think there is something wrong with me, like tolerance or something fell off and I am looking at all my relationship connections and feeling like my needs are not being met.  Worse just about every client I see is having illuminations about their family, husband, partner etc.  Just what the hell?”

Yes, I know I bombard them constantly with questions but since I spent most of my time off world with them, I want some answers as well.    I have already talked about coming out of the “Suffer to Learn” philosophy and into the “Create to be” but there seems to be a lot of collateral damage in between.      I keep hearing “That’s it, my relationship of 30 years is over.  My family connection is done.  I’ve disowned by brother, mother, father, child” and the list goes on.

Patiently the Guides explain, the alignments have changed.  “Suffer to learn” means choosing the most perfect of sometimes painful alignments for you to learn from.  Selfishness, thanklessness, unhappiness, ungratefulness, expectation, seeking approval.  You need to learn these and you would have teamed up family wise, partner wise, work wise to have those experiences to learn from..  You need to learn that over compromising in a relationship, any relationship is never going to serve you in the new energy.  Hell, you don’t even have the energy to do what you have done for years and years.

So instead of beating yourself up for the realization and then blaming your partner.  “For 20 years I did everything for him and he is so thankless, I am done!”   “For 18 years I paid for this and worked my ass off and she’s leaving me!”   There needs to be a massive, massive pause here to understanding exactly what is happening.    Needs have changed!

Interestingly most choices of the past have been to do with learning, programming and conditioning.   So Empaths chose Avoidant partners to learn about themselves from. I hear time and time again, “He won’t connect with me, share himself, his thoughts, his worries.  He won’t let me in”  and then “She demands I sit hold hands, watch soppy movies, put more effort into sex,  gets all moody and emotional and nag, nag, nag”.    *raises an eyebrow…  Sheesh!

Stop, stop, stop.   Lets get to the “Heart” of the matter seriously.   The world energy change is “realness, empathy, compassion and strength, Truthfully connecting”.   Empath’s soul pathway was to over nurture in a suffering energy to help things be easier.   Avoidant’s were here to work hard, do the tasks and get on with things in a suffering energy.   Both work in their own way, and both types are actually genderless so don’t go thinking that all men are the avoidants.  I have met some really, emotionally trapped women too.

Now the energy is shifting the roles are changing! and they are becoming much more emotional based and I don’t mean everyone hormonally bursting into tears, but heart connections of exchanged feelings, not hiding emotions.  So the Empaths are NOT hardening up even though they think they are, they just know they do not have to over compensate anymore and better, they don’t even want to.   The  Avoidants are going “what the hell, while I was busy head down bum up working, something changed and I’m not being nurtured like I was” and they are hunkering down feeling extremely picked on.

It’s HOW we weather this change that is really important because mostly we suck at seeing habits and patterns that we put in place in our important relationships.   Roles get defined and people get used to them.  She does this, he does that, and complacency comes in.  Then blame, instead of responsibility.

Responsibility is accepting my part in these connections historically as been this, I need to accept this and help implement helpful communication and understanding, that’s your best empath trait.   Avoidants, stop feeling picked on, you are not being asked to change really or be overly emotional, you are being asked to be present.  FULLY present at a heart level.   Look I really believe that some connections WILL be completely done, having served their complete teaching process and honouring that is important without blame.  BUT if you don’t get what is happening, you run the risk of taking those old behaviours straight back into the new connections you are seeking!

We are in the process of creating what our needs are.  We need to be looking at old habits and taking responsibility for the creation of them. Then and only then can we see where the necessary changes that are required are.  You haven’t failed for the love of Mike, you have EVOLVED in your needs, your connections and fingers, bloody crossed, understanding of YOU.

So stop with the finger-pointing and look at what is happening and changing!  People who are avoidants have learned through hard learning that opening their heart hurts.  They either had difficult childhoods, siblings, controlling, difficult parents and shite situations.  They learned to hide their feelings so they don’t feel vulnerable and exposed.  However, this new energy is requiring them to open themselves.  Shoot if I was an Avoidant I would run a mile in this energy.. It’s making them squirm uncomfortably as it is as old emotions are surfacing, triggers reacting so they can heal and it is far, far to easy to blame their empath partner than look at their own stuff.   BUT if you don’t, Dear Gorgeous Avoidant, you may well lose your amazing, loving empath as they go and seek heart unity with someone who can connect at a heart level.

THIS is the re-education space covering the energy of the next 6-7 years.  UNDOING bad habits and before you go Ohhhh yeah Avoidants…  Miss or Mr Empath, let’s have a look at what you have been “enabling” under the “Suffer to Learn” philosophy.     Cue Empath, “ohhhhh look their heart is sooo beautiful, I see you in there, I CAN FIX YOU…”  Yes, you heard Sticky fingered people.   Why you trying to fix them again?   Each person HAS to make, in this energy, the decision to take responsibility for SELF, there is no way forward without it.  So while you have been busy over compensating, putting everyone else a head of you until now you are really resentful.  You did that.  Under the soul learning of working out your own needs.  You programmed your relationship connections you would bend over backwards.  Of course they are going to be pissed off you are changing it.  You did everything for them for years… sheesh!

There be no unity, or connectivity without honesty from both sides, all sides and INSIDE out…   You want the love story?  The happy ever after?   Well start to look where your own imbalances are in your relationships.    Never say what you think?   Well hows that stifling your opinion working for you as your stomach turns and you over think what you could have, should have said?    Hows that working when you won’t acknowledge how you feel when the person you love more than anything walks out your life because you never had the courage to reinforce your love with care and respect, you just assumed they would always be there?    There are two sides and two changes required here and we need to be supporting each other to get here.   Take responsibility… Connect honestly, sometimes painfully, as we rediscover the new sides of balance within.

We have such opportunity here for such amazing honest connections.  Its time people… and we need to start with the relationship with ourselves and our old learning.  Forgive self and love self and you can forgive and love anyone with a truthful open heart that can connect honestly…   It’s a process and processes take time.. but it is time to embrace this energy instead of fighting to remain in the same suffering…  Its happening around you, within you and YOU have to flow with it or you become more hurt and more stuck.. hence the cement feeling of energy.  So many people trying hold onto that painful suffering to learn energy.  Change is relentless, don’t be left in the regrets of the past and continued suffering…  Now is perfect to implement honesty with yourself and your relationships.  Of course there will be adjusting, but cut yourself some slack seriously and everyone else.  We are in this together and we so need each other to heal to move forward.

Just have a think on it, start with you, no blame, but acknowledgement and then, well take responsibility, its a start and its the best start you can do in this changing space…








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Spirit Whispers: Self Permission… an unheard of solution…

I was having a discussion with the Guides around self sabotage and how much if the Universe is responding always and in all ways to us, then why do we see things not falling into place the way we want them to.   This, of course, sparked a discussion about perceptional control but that is another whole other story.

As usual I am walking across a desert with Trayedt, I listen to the sound of his sandals in the sand and ask again for his opinion.   These discussions are not definitive in the sense I believe all they say, but more designed for me to think about how I implement the understanding into my every day life.   The Guides quite often take me to spaces that are uniquely their own to impart wisdom and I wonder a little if Trayedt hasn’t brought me here because of my tendency to be distracted by everything else around me.   We all can be perfectly human and want to avoid intimate discussions at which we are the source.

I sigh and Trayedt stops walking to look at me curiously.   “Why is it that I feel like I am my biggest obstacle in this changing energy?”   He raises both eyebrows and looks at me “You really want me to answer that?”   I wrinkle my nose at him “Okay okay, rhetorical question”.       He laughs, “Half of your problem is upon acknowledging you are your own worst obstacle, is what to do about it”.    “I love avoidance” I mutter.

“Indeed” he replied.   I do at this point refrain from rolling my eyes.  “Self sabotage is very subtle” he adds.   ‘You can give yourself a million reasons.  Justify a million answers but the problem is it takes you simply back to square one again.   Humans have an ability to wait for catalysts before they change things.  When the comfortable becomes too uncomfortable, and what they thought served them no longer serves them.  Then and only then usually do they change what they are doing.   Simply how uncomfortable do you want to get?”

I sigh again. “Unhelpful answer, Trayedt”   He raises an eyebrow and walks on for a bit. I trudge after him “Just give me a solution”  I woffle at his back.  He stops and turns, hands clasped behind his back, over robe warm against the desert wind.  He stares at me intently for a moment.

“What about giving yourself permission?”   “To do what?  I told you, I am already in my own way and you’re now telling me to give myself permission?  To what?  Get out of my own way?”    He smiles “why not?”    Stunned for a moment I think.  Why not?  It’s a concept that seems so simple but so stupid.  I look at him and narrowly miss the small smile that he is concealing.   “Very funny, har har”.  He walks on and motions me to walk beside him.

“When do you give yourself permission?   Permission to change things?  Permission to be yourself?  Permission to be annoyed, permission to be sad, happy?   You fight your emotions because you do not think you should have them or be allowed to have them.  You smother your expression because you convince yourself that others thoughts should be looked after, even when they voice them and you are taken aback.   When exactly do you give yourself permission?”

I think about this for a long moment and then I frown.   The human brain is the only one on the planet that has a Judge, a Jury and a Sentencer in it for every single action that we take.   We wallow for days over something we said to someone else, what we should have done differently, how we could have been more assertive, understanding, ruder.   We justify our actions and we do wonderfully, GUILT.   For what?  Feeling the way we did?   We are not brave in how we communicate and least of all with ourselves.

We simply look at times for outward approval.  Confirmation from others that we are doing the right thing, we judge ourselves a lot from other standards and a societal perception of “doing the right thing”.  We ask our children to fit in, and try to fit in ourselves when at times we don’t feel like we fit at all.  So why do we do this?  Human nature says we need to fit somewhere.  Belong somewhere and part of us longs to be at peace in ourselves.   Yet it is us who creates our own peace and we cannot do that when we are blaming ourselves internally for our very actions and thoughts which are NOT that bad!

So Trayedt is right and it is a thought-provoking understanding.   When exactly do you give yourself permission just to be you.  To say what you think without malice, conditioning, justifying, or being frightened of what other people think?   This programming to give others external peace gives ourselves none and it simply doesn’t serve us either in this upcoming energy.  Acceptance of self and permission to be ourselves is exactly what we need to be doing.    There is nothing wrong with saying that you don’t agree with someone or something.   If they get the pip then that’s their issue and learning, we need to stop expecting others to “get us” all the time and just be ourselves with our own permission.

So here’s an affirmation and I’m building it into my New Years implementation list.

I give myself permission to be the change I need for me.  I give myself permission to re-spark me into passion by exploring new ideas and things I love to do.  I give myself permission to let go of the past, and old philosophies and ideas that no longer serve me.  I give myself permission to let go of energetically draining relationships if I have learned what I needed to.   I give myself permission to embrace change with joy.  I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION.

Looks at you curiously.   How do you feel?   I felt different, I felt like I let go of a weight I didn’t know that I was carrying.  Expectation of self to be something I didn’t even know that I was doing.   I think in giving myself permission to change in myself I have started to work on the obstacle that was me.

You are NOT stuck really, you are keeping yourself stuck because you haven’t given yourself permission to change YOU.   Now is perfect, its a planning month January and the new energy kicks off in February/March for most.  Time to start giving yourself permission to create what suits you and what you needs.  Its empowerment time people and you need to stop waiting for someone else to empower you.   Give YOU permission to fire up, fire out, and relight your own flame.    Shine the light you are and get into a permissive state of mind.

I will take that new job and create it beautifully.  I will have that new relationship and create it beautifully.   I will have that new friendship and create it wonderfully.  Get excited about giving yourself permission.   Its simple time and more than anything in this year, it is your time.  After all you just gave yourself permission *winks



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Spirit Whispers: Breaking free

The Grand old Duke of York, he had 10,000 men.  He marched them up the top of the hill and he marched them down again.  When they were up, they were up and when they were down, they were down.  When they were only half way up they were neither up nor down…

Well that certainly (thanks Granddad) sums up the energy at the moment and I have so many gorgeous people saying “I don’t feel like I am up or down, or even in the middle of anything at the moment”.    This is such a pivotal stage in our evolution right at this present time and for many, many people including our children it is just down right confusing.

There doesn’t seem to be a space to even get away from your own brain in this energy at times as everything seems to be pressuring or pressing in this energy as well.  I said to the Guides I feel like I am fracturing, like a vase, and hairline cracks are appearing all the way through me.    Serenely, they nod and say yes.   I glare at them as I feel it’s all very well for them to agree with that but it is making me feel like I am falling to pieces as well.    They disagree in so much as it’s not falling to pieces but cracking facades and illusions and programming that has been in place for far to long that is holding us back from being far more light that we have ever been.

So if you are noticing this about yourself, can you please stop putting pressure of you to be the same person you were 6 months ago because simply you are not and you are not going to be.   This is release energy and some of the things you are releasing you may not even be aware of it at a deep level but you just know that doing that behaviour, keeping others happy, is suddenly not appealing in any way, shape or form any more at all.    Please as I have said before do not beat you up about this, and you know I will probably keep saying it a bit in these blogs.

Guilt, the learning curve of the Carer Souls…  Stop feeling guilty that you cannot even summon the energy to go back to who you were.   These are all suffering spaces of the past,  and they do no serve you at all in this present change and it is a change, and yes it won’t last.   Stop thinking you are becoming a bad person just because you are evolving.  You can’t be if you tried.   You are internally and externally rebalancing yourself in a much more empowering way for you.

Think of it this way, every day for say 2000 years you have got up and dragged a big elephant around behind you.  You have got so used to carrying this elephant, feeding it, cleaning up after it, patting it, carrying it, dragging the weight of it, loving it and suddenly, after 2000 years, the elephant goes ‘Hey I’m good now, I’ll go do my own thing thanks’ and you go ‘WHAT?!?! what am I supposed to do now?  How am I supposed to be now?   I had this role, I had this elephant to look after and now after everything I did it doesn’t want me?”

Suddenly, you are bombarded with unfamiliar emotions regarding this… Resentment!  (Bloody ungrateful elephant), Anger! (How dare you be so selfish elephant running off on your own), Frustration! (where is another elephant who wants me to do this.  OMG there is a lot of them, I don’t want another elephant now or do I?  I don’t KNOW!)  Intolerance! (well stuff the lot of you, you all look like elephants to me and I am soul weary tired) Judgement! (If you are going to be elephants, buggar off and see how well you go by yourself)  Relief! (Thank Goodness I don’t have to do that anymore)  Guilt! (What if it fails, what if the elephant suffers, it will be my fault) Worry! (That elephant, it will get it self in trouble and what do I do?)

Now I will point out here, these ARE unfamiliar emotions because you are getting to feel them in their entirety where as before you could SMOTHER them with compassion, and empathy.    Well now you can’t simply and you are not supposed to.   This is singularly one of the most pivotal changes for the Carer Souls and other soul elements as well, don’t think its just Carer’s its all of us as this philosophy over the planet changes.    This is the rebalance of you… bringing you back to normal experiences beyond your perception or role is the imbalance of emotional states.

Look if you are like me you are still going bawl over sad movies, puppies  playing and fish dying, it’s not changing you, its evolving YOU into a space where you get to be more balanced IN you FOR you.  In doing this the rest of your world benefits.   People you have over supported can start to find their own feet.   I didn’t say they were going to LIKE it, but its important in evolutionary growth for people to grow, to evolve and its so important and empowering for you to lead the way in this.

This is one of the biggest re-education phases of the planet.   We change within, we change without and humans don’t actually really like change that much.  However, we are tired, soul tired, and we want we find to be living and breathing our beautiful lives.  We are looking at all the conformity of society as well and going Ummmm tell me AGAIN how this is empowering me? because I feel like I’m on a rat wheel and I don’t want to live like this anymore.

These new illuminations are crucial for us to begin in ourselves to pave the way to start CREATING what we truthfully and truly desire.   We are Creator Beings who got sidetracked by suffering to learn.   We are only just cracking open to start to empower and embrace the new “Create to be” philosophy.   It really doesn’t make us love any less nor have less compassion or empathy, but it makes us want to be fully present in our own being as well which will make it just different from before, not less, MORE.

It will take time for people to evolve too so its about leading by example you Gorgeous Pioneers, and re-educating yourself first about what you need in your heart to live a w fulfilling life for you.  When you do that you can then teach others to let go of fears, conditioning, programming as they come and say “how did you do that? How did you create what you have?”  and you being the beautiful, amazing being you are in all your glory will say “here let me show you”…

I’m loving where we are heading, but you cannot avoid your own fracturing, sit in it.  Get uncomfortable in it, get vulnerable in it, because within that vulnerability shines the truth of your light.  Look I will be honest, I thought it would be just easier to go back home again.  (Pity me, Brigade of One…. and it seriously was avoidance on my part.   Wallowing gets boring after a while *winks)   However, the truth is we chose to be here at this time and the cracking is partly addressing our secret fear we will fall apart.   We don’t, we CAN’T,  we reform, heal and under the cracked exterior we are still and ever will be the shining light we need to find our way home to.

I see you, you beautiful, Divine thing you, waiting to crack through and appear as the new being you are creating and I am in awe of you.   Celebrate cracking open, embrace it, you are rediscovering who you are and beyond the cracks is your freedom. Hold your light, surrender to the process and lets Hi Five each other on the other side as we truthfully are in this together and I am honoured to be with everyone ever single step of the way.   Remember who you are and stop fighting the process.    Everything is how it needs to be for us to figure out what is truly important going forward.




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Spirit Whispers: Carer Souls and Building Blocks

Sending out huge awesome, cosmic hugs to all the Carer Souls in this change energy.   You know I kind of want to explain what has been going on for the last couple of months so you can see it in a more empowering way than feeling the pinch of the changes.

We incarnate and we incarnate again and again, with purpose most of time.  Carer Souls have been down on the planet in abundance to help with the “Suffer to Learn” learning philosophy.   In my understanding which is based on the way I see colour in people and around people, that say about 70% of the planet is Carer Souls.  They have been down here for years helping people, nurturing people for 2000 years and more and being wonderful in their ability to nurture others.

Note I said OTHERS.    Now I have explained in previous blogs that changes for the Carer Souls were going to happen and that the responsibility requirements would change again as well.    So a little bit deeper into the incoming frequency, I notice that there are some huge impacts going on with these beloved Carer Beings.

They think they are being battered by the Universe into not caring.  They are struggling to care at all, about anything, they think.     Now, Gorgeous, Gorgeous Carer Souls, please understand this.   If for centuries you have put others needs before your own over lifetimes and lifetimes, do you not see that you are having to rebuild yourself into your own needs and this is completely and utterly unfamiliar territory for you as well.    For the first time in a long time you are being hit with unfamiliar feelings of self-worth, self value, and self-love.    It was easy to love other people and avoid yourself but you can now no longer do this.

Now you are being confronted with your own needs and it is very, very important not to start resenting others and yourself about what is being shown to you within your own feelings and understanding.  It can make you feel extremely picked on and wonder what is the point of being here.     I am seeing many people feeling this way and I have been wallowing in feeling like that for a while as well.   Each of us are here to experience being true to ourselves, in the face of the change of philosophy we are feeling a bit bereft and isolated in misunderstanding what is actually changing.

You are actually being presented with the most empowering and wonderful opportunity as we move into the new “Create to be” philosophy over the next years.  You are being given permission to rebuild you beyond responsibility and into the light of creation.    It’s not like being given a clean slate, you are being asked to look and clearly define all the areas where you have taken on too much responsibility, both in this life and others and to free yourself from that responsibility on self.    This is personal responsibility where you FEEL responsible for sorting everything out, which is vastly different from actual responsibility.

These are the areas where you claim responsibility which is now no longer yours to carry and you do not even have the energy nor, as you are horrified at yourself to find, no longer even WANT to.   The first thing is to stop beating yourself up.   You have another four months transitioning into your new foundations, so start staring at the old ones and start acknowledging what you are being shown.    This is the very seat of conscious choice.   The level that your soul has been released from that old understanding and like a shedding skin, you are stretching, pulling and redefining yourself into a new space.

Stop feeling guilty about it and start acknowledging the absolute honour that is being bestowed upon you.   The “Suffer to Learn” philosophy means you are still expecting to suffer in this, and you are fighting knowledge that you already have in the depths of your soul, that things are changed.  THAT is still suffering energy and you are only fighting with you as you try to figure it out.    Please come back to acknowledgement, that this is how it is supposed to be now and each time you try and pull yourself back into that old frequency you are zapping into resentment and frustration at everyone else and yourself.

It’s a pivotal time of rebuilding, of allowing yourself freedom to choose not on the basis of supporting everyone else, but for you.   It will completely feel like you are feeling around in the darkness trying to find a foundation for yourself, but that is the whole point.   YOU get to build the foundation and I suggest you start with one block. Giving yourself permission to rest.   Your soul is sooo tired of all the wonderful hard work you have done, that it’s going “I’m done”.       Well you aren’t done.  You are DONE with the old philosophy only and that is why it is time to declutter both symbolically and physically so you are free to move into stage two of your empowerment.

Stage two is building what you really love.   You remember all the times you told yourself you would love to have the freedom to do something wonderful, but you have to do this, do that, fix this, fix that.    This is not about going stuff people, I’m over them and I’m going to be selfish.   Lord, you don’t have a selfish bone in your body, you just need to do some things for you and its a reward time, so its perfect!   The best way I can explain what I have been shown is this is a “re-educate” time.

Re-educate yourself about your needs in living and breathing the beautiful life you want to have, by creating it and you as a Carer Soul get to lead the charge in this.  You re-educate you on how to create what you want for you and then you get to teach, by example, others how to do the same.   So if you notice, you are still nurturing others by teaching them, but not this time at the cost of you.

You will teach by BEING, fully present, fully caring, full acknowledging and fully creative in nurturing your own soul.   When you do this, others will think I want that too and they will ask you how you did it, and so beautiful, divine Carer Souls, your new purpose is empowered.    Teach you how to be free from the suffer to learn philosophy and you teach by example others to change too.

I am so excited (or will be once I put some more building blocks in place) of the potential of this new “Create to be” planetary alignment, I feel like I have been waiting for this my whole life.    There will still be personal life lessons but not the overwhelming need of support people, as people slowly but surely evolving into the new understanding.    Now some won’t.   Human nature says we fight to hold on, we fight to let go, but at the end of the day, those who want to evolve and their souls know it.   They are already ahead of the eight ball.   Keep going, keep changing, keep leading the charge as you so wonderfully and beautifully do but stop beating yourself up with an old philosophy that is no longer even you.

This is why you came, for this pivotal change.  Step into empowering you and start with yourself.


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