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Spirit Whispers: Self Permission… an unheard of solution…

I was having a discussion with the Guides around self sabotage and how much if the Universe is responding always and in all ways to us, then why do we see things not falling into place the way we want them to.   This, of course, sparked a discussion about perceptional control but that is another whole other story.

As usual I am walking across a desert with Trayedt, I listen to the sound of his sandals in the sand and ask again for his opinion.   These discussions are not definitive in the sense I believe all they say, but more designed for me to think about how I implement the understanding into my every day life.   The Guides quite often take me to spaces that are uniquely their own to impart wisdom and I wonder a little if Trayedt hasn’t brought me here because of my tendency to be distracted by everything else around me.   We all can be perfectly human and want to avoid intimate discussions at which we are the source.

I sigh and Trayedt stops walking to look at me curiously.   “Why is it that I feel like I am my biggest obstacle in this changing energy?”   He raises both eyebrows and looks at me “You really want me to answer that?”   I wrinkle my nose at him “Okay okay, rhetorical question”.       He laughs, “Half of your problem is upon acknowledging you are your own worst obstacle, is what to do about it”.    “I love avoidance” I mutter.

“Indeed” he replied.   I do at this point refrain from rolling my eyes.  “Self sabotage is very subtle” he adds.   ‘You can give yourself a million reasons.  Justify a million answers but the problem is it takes you simply back to square one again.   Humans have an ability to wait for catalysts before they change things.  When the comfortable becomes too uncomfortable, and what they thought served them no longer serves them.  Then and only then usually do they change what they are doing.   Simply how uncomfortable do you want to get?”

I sigh again. “Unhelpful answer, Trayedt”   He raises an eyebrow and walks on for a bit. I trudge after him “Just give me a solution”  I woffle at his back.  He stops and turns, hands clasped behind his back, over robe warm against the desert wind.  He stares at me intently for a moment.

“What about giving yourself permission?”   “To do what?  I told you, I am already in my own way and you’re now telling me to give myself permission?  To what?  Get out of my own way?”    He smiles “why not?”    Stunned for a moment I think.  Why not?  It’s a concept that seems so simple but so stupid.  I look at him and narrowly miss the small smile that he is concealing.   “Very funny, har har”.  He walks on and motions me to walk beside him.

“When do you give yourself permission?   Permission to change things?  Permission to be yourself?  Permission to be annoyed, permission to be sad, happy?   You fight your emotions because you do not think you should have them or be allowed to have them.  You smother your expression because you convince yourself that others thoughts should be looked after, even when they voice them and you are taken aback.   When exactly do you give yourself permission?”

I think about this for a long moment and then I frown.   The human brain is the only one on the planet that has a Judge, a Jury and a Sentencer in it for every single action that we take.   We wallow for days over something we said to someone else, what we should have done differently, how we could have been more assertive, understanding, ruder.   We justify our actions and we do wonderfully, GUILT.   For what?  Feeling the way we did?   We are not brave in how we communicate and least of all with ourselves.

We simply look at times for outward approval.  Confirmation from others that we are doing the right thing, we judge ourselves a lot from other standards and a societal perception of “doing the right thing”.  We ask our children to fit in, and try to fit in ourselves when at times we don’t feel like we fit at all.  So why do we do this?  Human nature says we need to fit somewhere.  Belong somewhere and part of us longs to be at peace in ourselves.   Yet it is us who creates our own peace and we cannot do that when we are blaming ourselves internally for our very actions and thoughts which are NOT that bad!

So Trayedt is right and it is a thought-provoking understanding.   When exactly do you give yourself permission just to be you.  To say what you think without malice, conditioning, justifying, or being frightened of what other people think?   This programming to give others external peace gives ourselves none and it simply doesn’t serve us either in this upcoming energy.  Acceptance of self and permission to be ourselves is exactly what we need to be doing.    There is nothing wrong with saying that you don’t agree with someone or something.   If they get the pip then that’s their issue and learning, we need to stop expecting others to “get us” all the time and just be ourselves with our own permission.

So here’s an affirmation and I’m building it into my New Years implementation list.

I give myself permission to be the change I need for me.  I give myself permission to re-spark me into passion by exploring new ideas and things I love to do.  I give myself permission to let go of the past, and old philosophies and ideas that no longer serve me.  I give myself permission to let go of energetically draining relationships if I have learned what I needed to.   I give myself permission to embrace change with joy.  I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION.

Looks at you curiously.   How do you feel?   I felt different, I felt like I let go of a weight I didn’t know that I was carrying.  Expectation of self to be something I didn’t even know that I was doing.   I think in giving myself permission to change in myself I have started to work on the obstacle that was me.

You are NOT stuck really, you are keeping yourself stuck because you haven’t given yourself permission to change YOU.   Now is perfect, its a planning month January and the new energy kicks off in February/March for most.  Time to start giving yourself permission to create what suits you and what you needs.  Its empowerment time people and you need to stop waiting for someone else to empower you.   Give YOU permission to fire up, fire out, and relight your own flame.    Shine the light you are and get into a permissive state of mind.

I will take that new job and create it beautifully.  I will have that new relationship and create it beautifully.   I will have that new friendship and create it wonderfully.  Get excited about giving yourself permission.   Its simple time and more than anything in this year, it is your time.  After all you just gave yourself permission *winks




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Spirit Whispers: On the edge of Tomorrow

“Lao?” “Yes?”   “Is this why old like tubes are appearing around people like old skins and they are shedding off their old stuff?”   “Yes”…   “We fight to stay the same don’t we”.  “yes, but the same isn’t there anymore”….

I have to say that I am really fascinated at the moment with the energy.  Incredibly.  I want to stare into people and look at how far they have come in their understanding.  I want to wake up more people and say REMEMBER who you are.   I’ve been spending huge amounts of time just watching, listening to the Guides and being in awe of how people are getting that they are both the key and the solution to the changes in their worlds.

I wish so much that people could see that things are changing so much that none of the old rules of learning down here apply anymore and we have more choices in front of us than has ever been presented if we can only remember that we are the Creators of our destiny.

Why did we forget?  To empower ourselves to relearn.   Part of the Unlearning is to look at all the learning we have had before, grow from it and move forward into new and more positive choices for ourselves.  The biggest concern is our perception of suffering until we work that one out.  Aren’t you tired of taking a battering?    We hold ourselves in perceptions until too they fade away and we learn even more.

Here’s what I have been extremely fascinated with lately.   Appearing around people is like this old tunnel, it looks grey, faded and worn, its always behind them.  When I first saw it I was what the heck is that?.   Then as I looked further I could see that it was old conditioning, old soul experiences and old understanding, patterns and behaviours.  People had been walking that tunnel for years.  For a moment they are paused at the entrance of that old tunnel, thinking about how far they have come.  They are taking inventory, taking stock of the learning and they are LEARNING that they have more choices than they thought as the old tunnel is fading away with all its conditions and doubts.   In front of them is two new pathways… its like emerging out of the darkness and blinking because its so darn light.  People are pausing and have been pausing, in conjunction with the Universe to take stock, to let the human body catch up and now as the new pathways are forming, it is so time to be planning.   March is an interesting month as it highlights these two new pathways.

When I ask the Guides why two?  Why are there two of them? they have come back with this understanding.  March brings decisions in multiple ways, defined by our courage and our ability to plan.  Again I will say we fight to hold our degrees of suffering because they are what is familiar.  One pathway represents even though it is new, our tendency to play it safe.  Therefore to me while it shines, it shines not as brightly as the other one.  It is the still the playing it safe pathway.  Also we are still fighting with addressing giving ourselves the approval that we need internally, to do with permission to be our authentic selves, hence we are still in the energy of the relationship with self so the pathway safe is appealing…

If our pathway forward is of our own choosing and we are still doubting we can be all we can be, then March brings the hard learning level into play.  The month of choices between these two pathways has the ability to bring us to the depths of ourselves to release the last of our internal fighting.  We will still have aspects that we need to heal but we never can remain in the one spot. EVER!  So choices represented by these two new golden pathways become so very individualised for only you can decide for you and for all those people wailing but I just want PEACE.  It comes from within and how peaceful are you truthfully with all those accusations you keep piling on yourself about your worth? Hmmz funny how you don’t want to make eye contact right now….

Look I am not meaning to say that March will be challenging, (so quit with the eye rolling), I am saying you need to get truthful and by that I mean truthful with yourself.  We think we have so much time as humans, that we will get to that and heaven forbid we also say it will happen when it it meant to happen.  Yes that is true, but we outmaneuver ourselves a hell of a lot too.

Everything that orchestrates in our world is either teaching us something or responding to us.   We need to give ourselves more permission to have a pathway lit up with all of the things that we want.  We think at times we have to earn stuff, and we do if that is part of what we planned for ourselves, but we are really shirking having the lives we want when we are constantly selling ourselves excuses.   The pathways are in front of you guys, and boy are they, in this Universal Year of Freedom, filled with opportunities.  Don’t miss them, get creating.  Stop hiding waiting for the hammer to fall, because in March it may well do, just to wake you out of inertia.

Personally I’d take the second pathway, the lit up one if I was you, because life is for living and you finally get a chance to create something special away from old thinking, old patterns and behaviours…  CREATE IT GOOD… Stop procrastinating for the love of Mike, and get those projects up and get into them, its about not just knowing you have wings, or remembering that but DOING something about it that makes the Universe go, I sooooooooooo got you covered for EVERYTHING…..

We are on the edge of tomorrow people… what kind of tomorrow are you invested into making…  its up to you…





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Spirit Whispers:The Unlearning and the final shedding…

When Upstairs said there would be some final intensity in a blast before the end of February I was like, okay thanks Guys.   I don’t know why I get so complacent when they are trying to give a heads up about the changes coming.   We really do not like change, humanity and we have a particular stubbornness when it comes to looking at our own thought patterns and behaviours, which has a lot to do with the fact we can be a bit oblivious to them until they smack us in the head.

I should notice, I see the colours in the airways shift and change and I do feel the changes in myself, so when they said look out for being disillusioned I should really have been paying more attention.    Christmas holidays can do that *winks.

So many souls have been down on the planet for such an incredibly long time and have carried for so long responsibility.  When you carry responsibility at a soul level, it is not just about what you do but your level of trying to bring harmony to the planet, it makes you simply feel all the time responsible in so many ways, coupled with Earth Plane learning you can very quickly feel consumed with responsibility all the time without knowing why and that is an awful load to be carrying, especially as when you came back through the veil you FORGOT all this anyway.

Many, many people are saying to me at the moment, I am so tired, I feel weary, I feel burdened.  Hmmz, this is the stage of rewriting, of releasing, of empowering self beyond those old standards, agreements and freedom of self.   THIS is why Spirit said watch out for being disillusioned.   Its not judgement, it is looking around and feeling really miffed that you are the one who feels like you are carrying so much responsibility, that people bring you all their stuff, which in reality they are doing to both teach you, you are not here to save the world, but also its YOU that has the perception it is your responsibility to carry all their stuff for them.

The Unlearning was always going to be about what you had held deeply at a soul level that simply is holding you back from your truth of self.  It does not mean that you will suddenly go of stuff this I’m not doing this in my world, but for many it will and the change in the Guard of the Light Worker mantle is about to shift and for all humanity.  It is not about giving up at all but seriously looking at what you have carried for wayyyyyyyy too long at a soul level and some will simply say I have done enough and that is perfect in their choice for them too.

I have been jumping during the night from Spirit moving these amazing, beautiful octagonal light platforms they feel like into a more harmonious alignment, and seeing many, many people in sleep doing the same.   What you are actually doing when you are sleeping, waking, sleeping, waking (apart from getting annoyed), is changing your own old pathways, patterns and entrenched learning at a cellular level into a new alignment.  So those large platforms are really cellular energy being refocused, reshifted and realigned.  Each time you come back down from sleep is to give time to bring that integration back into the body BY being in it.  It needs YOU to run the ship, you don’t get off that lightly!   Its been both so beautiful and amazing, but also what it does is it brings all OLD, OLD stuff with the shifting to the surface.   Quite a bit like moving the couch after months of being in one place and hoovering around it, then moving it finally and going O M Gerd, what is THAT…

Get that hoover out peoples and clear and clean your energies so that age old resentment, frustration and disillusionment do NOT take over in your world.   The changes coming have been awaited so long, but also the integration into human thinking is not a quick process.  We change within, we change without and so it slowly changes over time, generations and with wisdom and understanding.   We fight to suffer and remain the same in our thinking, this is ALL hard work, because its how it has been.   We never escape soul level learning but this is a wonderful opportunity for those who are ready to move forward into lighter energies know that all things happen for a reason and wake up calls on the planet are simply designed for those who are stubborn to see where the changes need to come in.   It’s a learning realm, it always will be, but the Guides explained it this way.

“Responsibility can overburden and make you forget about Love.  Too much unhealed responsibility at a soul level drags you down lower into disillusionment that things will ever change and so in this space you forget that love can heal the world.   You bring soul weariness into your human world and you become more judgmental, distorted in view and resentful of others.   You need to remember love, you need to put down old perceptions carried for too long and you need to bring loving care of self to the fore.  Shake off the chains of old programming, conditioning, experiencing and bring the light into your life through acknowledgement and love, and so your cells respond whole heartedly and your cellular structure increases in light and you see the truth and beauty of yourself more and you light the world more in love.   This is a global shift, many will fight to stay in what they know, but many, many are ready for the change.  Put down the burden and move into the shift”

So, Gorgeous Lights, over the next couple of weeks, know that YOU are working on you, shedding off what is not needed, bringing healing into self and unlearning so many aspects that you have sat in judgement of within you.   There is new opportunity for such growth at so many levels.  I love what Spirit says “We have not brought you this far, nor have you fought to grow this far, to JUST come this far”.   We are in it together and we are changing, expanding and we need to do that in love.  Not just with the planet but with ourselves and each other and as we transition through February, particularly through the 15th to the end, there are opportunities, so many opportunities, to recognise where we are pivotal in the Unlearning and shedding old stuff, for the planet and our own harmony in life.

You are the change, bring it back to understanding beyond disillusionment and resentment.  The change is within, without you and this year is a year to change all that you know, IF you choose.   Smiles, personally I know so many Souls are ready for this, so tired of carrying so much.  Set it down gently, ever grateful for the learning you have had but so ever ready for the release of the responsibility unknowingly carried for so long.

As I said, its a Universal Year of Freedom, time to find you beyond perceptions and old patterns.  Only you can break free of what you perceive you think you need.  The higher parts of you and Spirit are working to empower us through this as well since we don’t really remember how.   However, I personally am not walking away from my life.  I love what I choose to do, I am just really celebrating I CHOOSE, without the burden of feeling I HAVE TO.  Its about honouring what you choose and really enjoying it, without any expectation you have to.  That is the release and that is where your freedom lies… Acknowledging in your light, your freedom to choose.  Now is perfect!!



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Spirit Whispers: Projection, Dejection, Reflection, Connection

Wow, at times when people get busy on the earth plane, time can really, really fly!  Kind of feel like apologising for not blogging but the one thing about a human life journey is that no matter how spiritual you are or in my case how much I try and float above the planet, there is always earth plane stuff to pull your focus back to being totally present in your life.

The balance is always knowing that you can be Spiritually active within your human life at the same time everything else is going on.   Even though I may be preoccupied with the earth plane stuff, the Guides and Angelics are working everyday with their wisdom and advice.  So remember if the going gets tough, your support crew is still right there with you helping as much as they possibly can as you work through to clarity.

Feeling stuck, ask for an Angelic hug.  There is nothing like the feeling of being encased in warm wings as they wrap around you and the feeling of being loved, calm and belonging is out of this world.  Give it a try ♥

Anyhoo back to the blog subject!   We are slap bang in the middle of relationship energy at the moment and it is truthfully governed by the relationship that you have with yourself.

I am getting so many people across my doorstep who are being so affected by this energy as the Universe simply squeezes on us to release all those old belief systems and unharmonious thought patterns that we have within ourselves.    The problem is when the Universe, bless it, does this, it can make us even more avoid ourselves than we usually do and when that happens we “project” our stuff outwards onto other people.  Hell, its so much easier to blame someone else isn’t it?   When we do this we cannot see that it is actually a denial of the unhealed aspects of ourselves and its making us crash and burn within relationships with partners and people we may have been connected with for years and years.

At times we all desperately want to be understood by others, and yet we rarely understand ourselves or give the same degree of support and love we need from us first.   Projecting our frustration outwards can cause the demise of something that was really good but leaves you wondering what exactly went wrong when the relationship suddenly goes sour after years.

That means a lot of dejected people after the initial break down of communication, we quite often turn things back on ourselves and get quite dejected that the Universe has now turned tables on ourselves and we feel like we are back to square one again trying to sort out both our feelings and what the heck happened and simply where to from here.    This first stage of reflection past that dejected feeling (which by the way is completely normal as your ego wants to continually blame something or someone else), is to reflect on what happened.   If you have evolved enough in yourself to see that you are an equal part of the Universal equation in all your relationships and connections, you see why you felt that way.  Often this is too late for the current catalyst effect, BUT you grew and you learned and you decided what you would settle for and what you would not.

It is crucial at this stage to NOT start building regrets either about the other person or yourself, in reflection you always get to see what you could have done differently and therein lies the truth of the earth plane.  It is always about choice with you in the centre of those choices.  If you can cut yourself some slack and see aspects of you needed to heal and grow, you can then move forward into other connections armed with more knowledge about why you react the way you do and you see it was never about the other person but just growth.   So Connection becomes a more loving and wiser process.  That’s if you work it through with love and compassion for yourself, others and the learning that was involved.

This energy Spirit calls at the moment is the “Unlearning”, when OLD, OLD habits and behaviours, insecurities and suspicions are rising like bubbles in a glass of water within you to be released and healed.  The big push through to February (Don’t groan) is about releasing and healing, forgiving and growing and what better way to really truthfully address our stuff through our closest and most personal relationships.

We don’t often see that we are both the cause and the solution to our own growth, but there is no need to continually blame external situations either.  Down here on the earth plane, its is sooooooooo important to be loving yourself, forgiving yourself and letting go of old stuff so you can evolve.     I simply LOVE what a beautiful man in Spirit said to me the other day and I will share it with you.

“On the earth plane it’s so easy to get caught up in stuff that isn’t even yours.  Lose yourself off your path and into the bushes, stumble over obstacles and rocks and completely miss the point of being.   That’s the whole purpose.  Being.  You get to love yourself in totally new ways by experiences that force you to look at who you want to be and become.  It IS all about you, with others helping you to see that.  If you sit in the bushes moaning about your load and all the stubbed toes it sure makes you a miserable git.   Wish I had of simplified things, appreciated people more, thanked the people who I thought were idiots for teaching me to be me and just loved more.    Hindsight, huh, buggar.    My advice would be to forgive yourself first for just being down there to learn and then love people for making your life interesting!”

I have Lao behind me with a hand on my shoulder, this lovely Chinese guide who is teaching me the Art of Being and so much so I understand that in this Unlearning, a lot of it is learning to let go of the Judgement of Self we have carried for so long and learning also to stop judging others.

So take a moment to think.  What are you projecting onto others that is actually yours.  Where is your dejection you think this always happens to you?  and actively move more into reflection of wisdom because beyond that is a new way of connection with both yourself, others and the Universe.   We are getting lighter people, growing and changing, time to release stuff.   Also as an aside, all those annoying little twinges and problems that have you racing off to the Doctor in this energy, that is your body also trying at a cellular level to help you release all your cell baggage too.  You are energy condensed into matter, and your matter is also responding to the need to Unlearn.  So start loving your hurt bits, get in appreciation of your body and stop resenting it and start listening to it in where you have hidden old stuff in it that needs to be released and flow through the processes.

After all, we are all in this together and with the passing of this Universal Year of Implementation, we are moving into a Universal Year of Freedom, this means you gotta shed the baggage of the heavy you so you can embrace your year of freedom to be the real you.  Now (smiles at Lao) is absolutely perfect!




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