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Spirit Whispers: Self Permission… an unheard of solution…

I was having a discussion with the Guides around self sabotage and how much if the Universe is responding always and in all ways to us, then why do we see things not falling into place the way we want them to.   This, of course, sparked a discussion about perceptional control but that is another whole other story.

As usual I am walking across a desert with Trayedt, I listen to the sound of his sandals in the sand and ask again for his opinion.   These discussions are not definitive in the sense I believe all they say, but more designed for me to think about how I implement the understanding into my every day life.   The Guides quite often take me to spaces that are uniquely their own to impart wisdom and I wonder a little if Trayedt hasn’t brought me here because of my tendency to be distracted by everything else around me.   We all can be perfectly human and want to avoid intimate discussions at which we are the source.

I sigh and Trayedt stops walking to look at me curiously.   “Why is it that I feel like I am my biggest obstacle in this changing energy?”   He raises both eyebrows and looks at me “You really want me to answer that?”   I wrinkle my nose at him “Okay okay, rhetorical question”.       He laughs, “Half of your problem is upon acknowledging you are your own worst obstacle, is what to do about it”.    “I love avoidance” I mutter.

“Indeed” he replied.   I do at this point refrain from rolling my eyes.  “Self sabotage is very subtle” he adds.   ‘You can give yourself a million reasons.  Justify a million answers but the problem is it takes you simply back to square one again.   Humans have an ability to wait for catalysts before they change things.  When the comfortable becomes too uncomfortable, and what they thought served them no longer serves them.  Then and only then usually do they change what they are doing.   Simply how uncomfortable do you want to get?”

I sigh again. “Unhelpful answer, Trayedt”   He raises an eyebrow and walks on for a bit. I trudge after him “Just give me a solution”  I woffle at his back.  He stops and turns, hands clasped behind his back, over robe warm against the desert wind.  He stares at me intently for a moment.

“What about giving yourself permission?”   “To do what?  I told you, I am already in my own way and you’re now telling me to give myself permission?  To what?  Get out of my own way?”    He smiles “why not?”    Stunned for a moment I think.  Why not?  It’s a concept that seems so simple but so stupid.  I look at him and narrowly miss the small smile that he is concealing.   “Very funny, har har”.  He walks on and motions me to walk beside him.

“When do you give yourself permission?   Permission to change things?  Permission to be yourself?  Permission to be annoyed, permission to be sad, happy?   You fight your emotions because you do not think you should have them or be allowed to have them.  You smother your expression because you convince yourself that others thoughts should be looked after, even when they voice them and you are taken aback.   When exactly do you give yourself permission?”

I think about this for a long moment and then I frown.   The human brain is the only one on the planet that has a Judge, a Jury and a Sentencer in it for every single action that we take.   We wallow for days over something we said to someone else, what we should have done differently, how we could have been more assertive, understanding, ruder.   We justify our actions and we do wonderfully, GUILT.   For what?  Feeling the way we did?   We are not brave in how we communicate and least of all with ourselves.

We simply look at times for outward approval.  Confirmation from others that we are doing the right thing, we judge ourselves a lot from other standards and a societal perception of “doing the right thing”.  We ask our children to fit in, and try to fit in ourselves when at times we don’t feel like we fit at all.  So why do we do this?  Human nature says we need to fit somewhere.  Belong somewhere and part of us longs to be at peace in ourselves.   Yet it is us who creates our own peace and we cannot do that when we are blaming ourselves internally for our very actions and thoughts which are NOT that bad!

So Trayedt is right and it is a thought-provoking understanding.   When exactly do you give yourself permission just to be you.  To say what you think without malice, conditioning, justifying, or being frightened of what other people think?   This programming to give others external peace gives ourselves none and it simply doesn’t serve us either in this upcoming energy.  Acceptance of self and permission to be ourselves is exactly what we need to be doing.    There is nothing wrong with saying that you don’t agree with someone or something.   If they get the pip then that’s their issue and learning, we need to stop expecting others to “get us” all the time and just be ourselves with our own permission.

So here’s an affirmation and I’m building it into my New Years implementation list.

I give myself permission to be the change I need for me.  I give myself permission to re-spark me into passion by exploring new ideas and things I love to do.  I give myself permission to let go of the past, and old philosophies and ideas that no longer serve me.  I give myself permission to let go of energetically draining relationships if I have learned what I needed to.   I give myself permission to embrace change with joy.  I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION.

Looks at you curiously.   How do you feel?   I felt different, I felt like I let go of a weight I didn’t know that I was carrying.  Expectation of self to be something I didn’t even know that I was doing.   I think in giving myself permission to change in myself I have started to work on the obstacle that was me.

You are NOT stuck really, you are keeping yourself stuck because you haven’t given yourself permission to change YOU.   Now is perfect, its a planning month January and the new energy kicks off in February/March for most.  Time to start giving yourself permission to create what suits you and what you needs.  Its empowerment time people and you need to stop waiting for someone else to empower you.   Give YOU permission to fire up, fire out, and relight your own flame.    Shine the light you are and get into a permissive state of mind.

I will take that new job and create it beautifully.  I will have that new relationship and create it beautifully.   I will have that new friendship and create it wonderfully.  Get excited about giving yourself permission.   Its simple time and more than anything in this year, it is your time.  After all you just gave yourself permission *winks



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Spirit Whispers:The Unlearning and the final shedding…

When Upstairs said there would be some final intensity in a blast before the end of February I was like, okay thanks Guys.   I don’t know why I get so complacent when they are trying to give a heads up about the changes coming.   We really do not like change, humanity and we have a particular stubbornness when it comes to looking at our own thought patterns and behaviours, which has a lot to do with the fact we can be a bit oblivious to them until they smack us in the head.

I should notice, I see the colours in the airways shift and change and I do feel the changes in myself, so when they said look out for being disillusioned I should really have been paying more attention.    Christmas holidays can do that *winks.

So many souls have been down on the planet for such an incredibly long time and have carried for so long responsibility.  When you carry responsibility at a soul level, it is not just about what you do but your level of trying to bring harmony to the planet, it makes you simply feel all the time responsible in so many ways, coupled with Earth Plane learning you can very quickly feel consumed with responsibility all the time without knowing why and that is an awful load to be carrying, especially as when you came back through the veil you FORGOT all this anyway.

Many, many people are saying to me at the moment, I am so tired, I feel weary, I feel burdened.  Hmmz, this is the stage of rewriting, of releasing, of empowering self beyond those old standards, agreements and freedom of self.   THIS is why Spirit said watch out for being disillusioned.   Its not judgement, it is looking around and feeling really miffed that you are the one who feels like you are carrying so much responsibility, that people bring you all their stuff, which in reality they are doing to both teach you, you are not here to save the world, but also its YOU that has the perception it is your responsibility to carry all their stuff for them.

The Unlearning was always going to be about what you had held deeply at a soul level that simply is holding you back from your truth of self.  It does not mean that you will suddenly go of stuff this I’m not doing this in my world, but for many it will and the change in the Guard of the Light Worker mantle is about to shift and for all humanity.  It is not about giving up at all but seriously looking at what you have carried for wayyyyyyyy too long at a soul level and some will simply say I have done enough and that is perfect in their choice for them too.

I have been jumping during the night from Spirit moving these amazing, beautiful octagonal light platforms they feel like into a more harmonious alignment, and seeing many, many people in sleep doing the same.   What you are actually doing when you are sleeping, waking, sleeping, waking (apart from getting annoyed), is changing your own old pathways, patterns and entrenched learning at a cellular level into a new alignment.  So those large platforms are really cellular energy being refocused, reshifted and realigned.  Each time you come back down from sleep is to give time to bring that integration back into the body BY being in it.  It needs YOU to run the ship, you don’t get off that lightly!   Its been both so beautiful and amazing, but also what it does is it brings all OLD, OLD stuff with the shifting to the surface.   Quite a bit like moving the couch after months of being in one place and hoovering around it, then moving it finally and going O M Gerd, what is THAT…

Get that hoover out peoples and clear and clean your energies so that age old resentment, frustration and disillusionment do NOT take over in your world.   The changes coming have been awaited so long, but also the integration into human thinking is not a quick process.  We change within, we change without and so it slowly changes over time, generations and with wisdom and understanding.   We fight to suffer and remain the same in our thinking, this is ALL hard work, because its how it has been.   We never escape soul level learning but this is a wonderful opportunity for those who are ready to move forward into lighter energies know that all things happen for a reason and wake up calls on the planet are simply designed for those who are stubborn to see where the changes need to come in.   It’s a learning realm, it always will be, but the Guides explained it this way.

“Responsibility can overburden and make you forget about Love.  Too much unhealed responsibility at a soul level drags you down lower into disillusionment that things will ever change and so in this space you forget that love can heal the world.   You bring soul weariness into your human world and you become more judgmental, distorted in view and resentful of others.   You need to remember love, you need to put down old perceptions carried for too long and you need to bring loving care of self to the fore.  Shake off the chains of old programming, conditioning, experiencing and bring the light into your life through acknowledgement and love, and so your cells respond whole heartedly and your cellular structure increases in light and you see the truth and beauty of yourself more and you light the world more in love.   This is a global shift, many will fight to stay in what they know, but many, many are ready for the change.  Put down the burden and move into the shift”

So, Gorgeous Lights, over the next couple of weeks, know that YOU are working on you, shedding off what is not needed, bringing healing into self and unlearning so many aspects that you have sat in judgement of within you.   There is new opportunity for such growth at so many levels.  I love what Spirit says “We have not brought you this far, nor have you fought to grow this far, to JUST come this far”.   We are in it together and we are changing, expanding and we need to do that in love.  Not just with the planet but with ourselves and each other and as we transition through February, particularly through the 15th to the end, there are opportunities, so many opportunities, to recognise where we are pivotal in the Unlearning and shedding old stuff, for the planet and our own harmony in life.

You are the change, bring it back to understanding beyond disillusionment and resentment.  The change is within, without you and this year is a year to change all that you know, IF you choose.   Smiles, personally I know so many Souls are ready for this, so tired of carrying so much.  Set it down gently, ever grateful for the learning you have had but so ever ready for the release of the responsibility unknowingly carried for so long.

As I said, its a Universal Year of Freedom, time to find you beyond perceptions and old patterns.  Only you can break free of what you perceive you think you need.  The higher parts of you and Spirit are working to empower us through this as well since we don’t really remember how.   However, I personally am not walking away from my life.  I love what I choose to do, I am just really celebrating I CHOOSE, without the burden of feeling I HAVE TO.  Its about honouring what you choose and really enjoying it, without any expectation you have to.  That is the release and that is where your freedom lies… Acknowledging in your light, your freedom to choose.  Now is perfect!!



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Spirit Whispers: Relationship Energy and the Unlearning…

This time of year always represents its challenges with Christmas looming and the thoughts of connecting families that have interesting dynamics.  But more so than anything in this energy at this time of year being all about relationships, it is set to be an interesting Christmas to say the least.

I have been spending time with the Guides asking for understanding about what is happening in relationships and certainly have been doing that with my own interpersonal relationships coming under fire as well!  How can relationships that have been really stable for years and years suddenly be collapsing and why are dynamics changing so quickly with friendships and colleagues that you have worked with for years as well.

You may find yourself feeling like you are on a roller coaster within yourself as well as you struggle to find stable ground within yourself and the relationship with you.  Certainly no one person is unaffected in this energy.

I love what one of my clients said. “Oh I will just hang out to February and then we will be past this energy”  I laughed.  Unfortunately if you are not prepared to see you as a major part of this push then you won’t be releasing old issues in the way you need to and certainly past February it won’t be any easier for you.   We do so dislike having to address our stuff don’t we?

I have talked about the Unlearning before as I have spent a huge amount of time discussing this with the Guides as well.  How do you unlearn? The key of course takes recognition of a pattern or behaviour and a realisation that it is actually you that is the key.  You either created, owned or believed and adopted a behaviour and usually for a really valid reason yet it is not one that will serve you in the long run.

To give you an example, and I will use myself because I too am having a human journey as well.  One of my learned insecurities is to do with approval.  I get extremely stressed if I perceive that a person doesn’t like me (now I have got a lot better with this because I know my pattern). I can let my brain race off into all the things I could do to “earn” that persons approval, contort myself into discomfort, just to try and win that persons approval at the same time really being cruel to myself about what I “lack” that would make that person happy.   That is a VERY common pattern for people to do and be here on the earth plane to learn about.

The”Unlearning” is recognizing a) that I am doing it for a start and b) implementing self approval so I don’t need to feed my insecurity off others.    In a way, its coming back to my own needs rather than reinforcing the same pattern and behaviour and using other people to blame for not giving me what I desperately need to give myself.

I love what the Guides say about the Unlearning;  “To truly be at peace with oneself, you must look to all the ways that you have learned to judge, to betray, to sabotage, to reject, to be disloyal, unloving to yourself and then within those wounds, you will find the way to love yourself well”.

Okay, I hear you it IS easier said than done.  However, if you are anything like me I would like to be living my beautiful life WITHOUT killing myself and my external relationships on the way!   There is always a starting point and that starting point Gorgeous people is you.   As always the key here is awareness.   When you see a behaviour that someone else is doing and you think oh for goodness sake stop being so pathetic.  Understand this, you are judging them completely for maybe something that they have learned on their own pathway.   What if they don’t know any different because their experiences have given them their own belief structure and learned patterns and they too are struggling with unlearning what doesn’t serve them either? and to be honest, their behaviour pattern MAY be one of yours but you are just not in that space at that time?

Best thing to do at this time is to look inward.  Apply understanding to where they may be coming from and bring in extra nurturing to yourself as well.   As humans we love to over analyse this and that.  Spend endless hours over thinking why someone behaved this way, that way, what was my role in that, how did that happen.  To the point we can do our own head in, but what we are doing is analysing someone else by THEIR own belief and learned structure in comparison with ours.   Then worse we spent hours trying to get that person to understand where WE are coming from.

STOP!  In this energy it is completely and utterly impractical to do that.  In this energy people are completely confused by their own reactions and in an attempt to avoid at times their own stuff, they want to walk away.  I think I have heard so many “I’ve had enough’s” this month to sink the Titanic.  Yes, you are meant to have enough.  But if you walk out of one relationship not understanding you are part of the equation, where do you think you are taking that energy?  Right into the next relationship that’s where and then the cycle and pattern repeats itself again.

I hear so much I want my person to understand me.  Hmmz… you do realise that mostly you don’t understand yourself and worse you may be asking another person who has NO idea where your beliefs, learning and core structure came from because their life experiences were completely different from yours, to understand something that is completely beyond their comprehension and they may never understand it?

Then I hear this “But they have been with me for 25 years, they should know this?”  HOW?  When did you ever tell them about those invisible boundaries, invisible learnings and invisible RULES to relationships that you have in your head?     Stop expecting people to GET you on invisible stuff that they have no idea about and better yet stop being unkind with it.

In this relationship energy STOP with the brain stuff ok?  Open your mouth and VERBALISE what your needs are.  Speak from your heart not your mind.  This is the crux of understanding this energy and working in it.  Stop leaving things unsaid because you expected understanding, support and nurturing in invisibility.

One of the hardest lessons for me these last 6 weeks has been realising HOW much I have got into a bad habit of distorting the intention of my partner into annoying me.   He doesn’t, he has his own learning and way of doing things that is different than mine.  At some point in complacency I decided that his way was WRONG.  It isn’t it is his way and its absolutely fine to be that way.   We just forgot to communicate about it.  Both of us felt unheard by the other and the annoyances got bigger.  Jockeying for position of being heard meant words got more aggressive, being right became more important and listening went out the window.  THAT became a pattern in itself and in those moments it is really EASY to think that the relationship is doomed.   It isn’t, you just created a new pattern based on your own unfulfilled need to be heard on your own terms.  If the other person feels exactly the same way you just BUTT heads over and over again until resentment, frustration and anger becomes an integral part of your whole relationship until it’s destroyed.

Think about this, usually you have a really good reason why you do something.  WHAT if everyone does?   What if you stop and say “can I ask you why you did that?  What was your intention behind that?  How did you feel about that?”     What if we stopped over thinking, over analysing each other and came down to being honest with each other in compassion and understanding?

Clarity is the key here.   Thinking about WHY you reacted the why you did and is it a pattern of yours (facepalm I think you know that one will be confronting)  Looking where else in your relationships you play out those patterns (double facepalm) and THEN consciously saying I will do the opposite because that pattern has never served me and makes me feel so unhappy.    For me taking a moment to say to myself I am not going to start an argument here, I don’t need to be right, changed so much.  Instead I said to my partner, thank you I value your opinion and what you showed me I needed to heal in me.    The solution is simple if you are prepared to understand what is happening in this Unlearning and Relationship energy.

Mostly we are seriously crappy communicators and this energy demands we be more honest with ourselves, old habits and whether we are cherishing and respecting ourselves and each other in relationships.  The Art of Compromise is what brings successful relationships not an overwhelming need to be right or play out old patterns learned from parents, or silblings in the cruelest ways with each other.

There is always gifts in how we learn and unlearn,  there is always a benefit to our understanding, if we know this and work through it we grow and start to have the successful relationships we want and we heal simply. Look for your patterns in how you test people, treat people and yourself and realise it is ALWAYS reflected and projected into your other relationships.  Then and only then do you find the way forward back to loving you and the people who are in your world unconditionally and with an inherent appreciation for their learning and experiences.
Now is perfect!





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Spirit Whispers: Projection, Dejection, Reflection, Connection

Wow, at times when people get busy on the earth plane, time can really, really fly!  Kind of feel like apologising for not blogging but the one thing about a human life journey is that no matter how spiritual you are or in my case how much I try and float above the planet, there is always earth plane stuff to pull your focus back to being totally present in your life.

The balance is always knowing that you can be Spiritually active within your human life at the same time everything else is going on.   Even though I may be preoccupied with the earth plane stuff, the Guides and Angelics are working everyday with their wisdom and advice.  So remember if the going gets tough, your support crew is still right there with you helping as much as they possibly can as you work through to clarity.

Feeling stuck, ask for an Angelic hug.  There is nothing like the feeling of being encased in warm wings as they wrap around you and the feeling of being loved, calm and belonging is out of this world.  Give it a try ♥

Anyhoo back to the blog subject!   We are slap bang in the middle of relationship energy at the moment and it is truthfully governed by the relationship that you have with yourself.

I am getting so many people across my doorstep who are being so affected by this energy as the Universe simply squeezes on us to release all those old belief systems and unharmonious thought patterns that we have within ourselves.    The problem is when the Universe, bless it, does this, it can make us even more avoid ourselves than we usually do and when that happens we “project” our stuff outwards onto other people.  Hell, its so much easier to blame someone else isn’t it?   When we do this we cannot see that it is actually a denial of the unhealed aspects of ourselves and its making us crash and burn within relationships with partners and people we may have been connected with for years and years.

At times we all desperately want to be understood by others, and yet we rarely understand ourselves or give the same degree of support and love we need from us first.   Projecting our frustration outwards can cause the demise of something that was really good but leaves you wondering what exactly went wrong when the relationship suddenly goes sour after years.

That means a lot of dejected people after the initial break down of communication, we quite often turn things back on ourselves and get quite dejected that the Universe has now turned tables on ourselves and we feel like we are back to square one again trying to sort out both our feelings and what the heck happened and simply where to from here.    This first stage of reflection past that dejected feeling (which by the way is completely normal as your ego wants to continually blame something or someone else), is to reflect on what happened.   If you have evolved enough in yourself to see that you are an equal part of the Universal equation in all your relationships and connections, you see why you felt that way.  Often this is too late for the current catalyst effect, BUT you grew and you learned and you decided what you would settle for and what you would not.

It is crucial at this stage to NOT start building regrets either about the other person or yourself, in reflection you always get to see what you could have done differently and therein lies the truth of the earth plane.  It is always about choice with you in the centre of those choices.  If you can cut yourself some slack and see aspects of you needed to heal and grow, you can then move forward into other connections armed with more knowledge about why you react the way you do and you see it was never about the other person but just growth.   So Connection becomes a more loving and wiser process.  That’s if you work it through with love and compassion for yourself, others and the learning that was involved.

This energy Spirit calls at the moment is the “Unlearning”, when OLD, OLD habits and behaviours, insecurities and suspicions are rising like bubbles in a glass of water within you to be released and healed.  The big push through to February (Don’t groan) is about releasing and healing, forgiving and growing and what better way to really truthfully address our stuff through our closest and most personal relationships.

We don’t often see that we are both the cause and the solution to our own growth, but there is no need to continually blame external situations either.  Down here on the earth plane, its is sooooooooo important to be loving yourself, forgiving yourself and letting go of old stuff so you can evolve.     I simply LOVE what a beautiful man in Spirit said to me the other day and I will share it with you.

“On the earth plane it’s so easy to get caught up in stuff that isn’t even yours.  Lose yourself off your path and into the bushes, stumble over obstacles and rocks and completely miss the point of being.   That’s the whole purpose.  Being.  You get to love yourself in totally new ways by experiences that force you to look at who you want to be and become.  It IS all about you, with others helping you to see that.  If you sit in the bushes moaning about your load and all the stubbed toes it sure makes you a miserable git.   Wish I had of simplified things, appreciated people more, thanked the people who I thought were idiots for teaching me to be me and just loved more.    Hindsight, huh, buggar.    My advice would be to forgive yourself first for just being down there to learn and then love people for making your life interesting!”

I have Lao behind me with a hand on my shoulder, this lovely Chinese guide who is teaching me the Art of Being and so much so I understand that in this Unlearning, a lot of it is learning to let go of the Judgement of Self we have carried for so long and learning also to stop judging others.

So take a moment to think.  What are you projecting onto others that is actually yours.  Where is your dejection you think this always happens to you?  and actively move more into reflection of wisdom because beyond that is a new way of connection with both yourself, others and the Universe.   We are getting lighter people, growing and changing, time to release stuff.   Also as an aside, all those annoying little twinges and problems that have you racing off to the Doctor in this energy, that is your body also trying at a cellular level to help you release all your cell baggage too.  You are energy condensed into matter, and your matter is also responding to the need to Unlearn.  So start loving your hurt bits, get in appreciation of your body and stop resenting it and start listening to it in where you have hidden old stuff in it that needs to be released and flow through the processes.

After all, we are all in this together and with the passing of this Universal Year of Implementation, we are moving into a Universal Year of Freedom, this means you gotta shed the baggage of the heavy you so you can embrace your year of freedom to be the real you.  Now (smiles at Lao) is absolutely perfect!




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